Getting too lazy with this.

Monday was awful as usual BUT I finally made two friends in my tute. Us girls uniting against the international asian dickbags. Emma's cha cha class was also fun despite my having to be a leader. I'm pretty sure that hour didn't require very much exertion but Jen and I shared three Thai dishes between the two of us and continued for Tom N Tom's afterwards.

Stats day Tuesday yay. The lectures and lecture slides legitimately make no sense with all these unexplained long equations so thank jesus for the tute that actually made things comprehensible and allowed me to get 100% for MSL yay.

I bumped into Fabio in Fisher! Recognised his ginormous leg gap heh and he's as beautiful as ever. Sean, Jen and I headed for dinner and the measly amount of cocktail we drank had them red and slightly buzzed, it was worrying. Salsa night at the Establishment. It was not as fun as the last time we went nearly 6 months ago, maybe because there wasn't Laurence to dance with and I was also very rusty, did not do a very good job of following. After a couple of hours, Eddie and I just settled down to gape at some of the amazing presumably professional dancers who turned up. It was discouraging.

Agonised through tutes on Wednesday that I didn't complete the readings for sigh, really got to catch up. MY CLAW MIDSEM IS IN ONE WEEK. Skip to attending VA showcase with Anika and Brandon. It was more visually spectacular than 2013 but most of the concepts failed to impress me. Except for the Merry Christmas Island one. There were only 14 works though. I feel like in the previous years, the whole VA block was filled with works. Even 4u English has more students.

We headed to Chef's Noodle for dinner and ugh, really should've continually passed around our giant serves because they just stopped tasting good due to the sheer amount of food we each endure.

Finally a quiet day on Thursday which I think was wasted listening to Elvis on repeat throughout the day which hindered my ability to concentrate. I did spend a good amount of time doing several washing loads and trying to tidy the house because it's just been such a mess since semester started. Only get it to myself for three more weeks :(

Friday was Eric's 19th birthday! It's pretty mind-blowing to think we've known each other and all our other friends for our entire teenage years. The city was so miserably cold and windy, I'm surprised my stomach wasn't dead before dinner started. Everyone was late as usual. Making others wait is insensitive, why does nobody have any sense of punctuality?

Dinner was better than I expected. The banquet was just an assortment of 14 pizzas/pastas and they didn't disappoint. Not too tomato-y and the cheese on the base was seriously delicious. We all headed to The Star for Messina and wow, the tiramisu flavour that Michelle got was AMAZING, and I usually dislike tiramisu.

Anika, Nayomi and I got some zumbarons before heading back to QVB. We bumped into one of her 1020 tutors, asian George, who was a really cool guy and we all had a nice chat while bracing the coastal wind on Pyrmont Bridge. We bumped into Rowena in the bus line! I miss her, I never get to see anybody at uni anymore. Thankfully for her, we managed to snag the last two seats on the bus, and it was fun catching up.

The three of us finally got back to mine and settled on the couch to watch White Chicks and eat two packets of chips and all our zumbarons at 2am ugh. I helped them stretch for the splits which obviously went really well and then we just chatted before calling it a 'night' at 5:30.

Unfortunately since they were both leaving at noon on Saturday, we decided to be up by 9 to maximise time together. I made french toast and sort of fail pancakes for dinner while we watched Enchanted and swooned over Patrick Dempsey. The apartment felt pretty sad once they'd both left. I ended up napping till dinner though after being unable to function on three hours sleep.

It was Alex' name day LOL so we went to this south-east asian/Thai restaurant in penno for dinner. Service was sooo slow because apparently satay skewers take half an hour to cook but mm worth it, the dishes were great. THRE WAS FRIED ICE CREAM ON THE MENU which I haven't had for at least 5 years or something omg. This was not a good addition to the previous night's food still swirling around in my system.

Come Sunday, I realise my grammar assignment is due tomorrow yay. Thankfully the majority of it took very little time but uh, this last question is stumping me. Three damn marks and they recommend ONLY A FEW PARAGRAPHS?

It's been nearly a month since I sprained my ankle and thus a month I've gone without exercising because of the fear of reinjury if I attempt any sort of exertion beyond yoga. I think I'll try tonight though, can't deal with this any longer. If I ever finish this stupid exercise. It really sucks that midsem break is so late in the semester. It's usually the week to finally cram and get up to date ready to somehow tackle finals but nooo.


Jesus Christ nearly deleted this whole post which has taken me half an hour so I think it's time for this to come to an end.

Thought I could've used this week to catch up but no, my four day weekend seems to only be used for relaxation. Missing my sem 1 timetable.

Jen and I are going to dance camp in a month! I'm actually super nervous about it. What to do in front of a whole bunch of judgmental asian hip hop dancers. The hip hop societies in unis are all asian dominated.

Emma Approved ended on a very disappointing lack-of-closure note so Jess and I are not very pleased about that. And who ends on a number as inconclusive as 72?

I bought a silicon keyboard cover because the fingerprints were grossing me out but this is so not easy to type on, and the muffled sound is not as satisfying as the previous thunderous typing.

UGH FUCKING HATE UNI, Mondays are the worst. Sob for the half days on Mondays and Fridays last year, so good. At least there's Emma's Latin class to look forward to and then salsa at the Establishment with MADSOC people on Tuesday yeee. It's only been a week since OSCURO.

This is unfortunately a packed week. What was I thinking when I shoved away all my books and opted for my ipad.

Back to the grind of uni, it's pretty overwhelming. The torrential rain and gusty winds seem to be an appropriate metaphor.

I've really got a lot of English to catch up on. Maybe I should have just done American Studies for my junior unit.

My mum was walking down the stairs yesterday and then missed the last one, hurting her foot/ankle as a result. Thankfully mine is healing pretty well. I did buy the strapping tape yesterday and, after making marks where Lisa taped it, attempted it myself. Eh it'll be better next time. It actually feels strong enough that I can do yoga now, which means regaining my flexibility and getting back into splits yes.

#POD (post-oscuro depression) has been trending my fb for the past few days, it's been real distracting. The photos are being uploaded way too slowly and the show playlist is on repeat, preventing me from doing work. Then there's that period of gloom after the closing piece finishes and another hour and a half has passed.

How life has changed from a year ago where 4 hours sleep was standard and now I can't function with less than 8 or 7 minimum.

So many feels.

OSCURO ended last night :( Contrary to how I felt about it on Friday, we were actually a lot more pumped for this show knowing we had the responsibility to end it on an epic climax. We totally succeeded, Emma nearly cried again which means we were fucking beast. We're so proud of Jordan, it all culminated into something just incredible for us and for the show. It was super sad leaving though, tears everywhere especially since so many people are graduating and it's their last year with MADSOC which means we won't have so many amazing dancers for future productions. AW and Lisa made all of us these braided bracelets that I'm probably going to wear very regularly along with my other OSCURO merchandise. Going to miss all those rehearsal antics, the stress, the body aches. And the people especially.

Afters was a bit of a letdown. After a few of us found a kebab shop because drinking on an empty stomach was not a good idea, campus security kicked everyone out. Thankfully Angel let hip hop sneak over to her place and for once I was taking care of the drunks. Jordan was so sweet, spewing all this emotional shit he kept quiet about during rehearsals to prevent our egos from exploding. And then there was real vomit and drunk furious Angel was the cutest thing.

Jen and I ended up getting back to my place around 3:30 and finally getting into bed an hour later. And then waking up 5 fucking hours later without the help of an alarm, not sure. I made french toast for breakfast and then endured the most painful massage of my life with Jen's bony elbows digging into my back knots.

Writing the work that needs to be caught up on sometime this week was really making me feel a bit sick. Worse, my English lecture recordings only stay up for a week and I kinda missed two lectures... There are 9 chapters to read by tomorrow hm. Too paralysed to even begin.

The OSCURO soundtrack is soooo good. This is going to be on repeat for a long time. So grateful to have been a part of it. Hopefully more productions to come.

It's been a tiring couple of days. One more to go before the end of a pretty great experience.

Thursday was tech run at Seymour and it was essentially a waste of time because nothing went according to plan and none of the pieces in the second act i.e. the ones I'm in, they didn't get to test out blocking on the stage so um yeah, just sat around doing nothing. However, Lisa did strap up my ankle and it was amazing, I could actually dance!

Bleh Jen and I had a pretty gross food adventure afterwards to reward ourselves for doing absolutely nothing the whole day. Shared a pad Thai and then lost our hot star virginity. We must've gotten unlucky because the batter was slightly undercooked, it wasn't very enjoyable. Meet Fresh to top that off and Jen would've gone for some Tom n Toms afterwards if I wasn't about to throw up.

OMG EMMA APPROVED. I inadvertently stayed up till 2am packing my bag and figured I'd wait a little longer to watch the episode where Alex and Emma finally realised that they're destined for each other. Not sure if it's as good as LBD ep 98. The kiss in LBD  was perfect but the EA was a little gross with the open mouths and all. Kind of disappointed considering the actors had begun dating by then and would've had some practice to make it look good.

Thank Jesus I epilated my legs because ripping off that ankle tape with hairy winter legs would've been a real test to my pain threshold. It was already bad enough with smooth legs. Anyway I convinced Jordan I was good to go for both Blood and Lorde and I managed to get through Mad Hatter without falling or reinjury.

Dress rehearsal was pretty exciting. Not too stressful for me considering I could only manage to do 2.5 out of 5 pieces. Otherwise they were good times bonding in our pretty luxurious dressing room with the crew. I underwent the most painful massage ever getting all these knots out of my shoulders. Enduring that made me sweat more than the performances.

I finally saw Anika before the show! Honestly wasn't even weird like she'd been gone for so long, it was just all oh hey it's you again. Anyway after informing my family of my ability to do two dances, they quickly bought some of the last tickets for tonight which was sweet. Along with everyone else who came; Christine, Nayomi, Sean, Rowena and Elaine. It was nice to have a purpose to perform full out.

Honestly I just kind of wanted to be seated in the audience and watch because most of the pieces are just amazing sob and the DVD we get won't do them justice. Mad Hatter went pretty smoothly, didn't trip up on any of my shanays. Had my character face on, probably looked like my usual wanting to kill somebody self. Anyway the music for this piece was epic so it probably forgave any issues with choreo and synchronicity. Actually all the music choices were fantastic, I gotta make a playlist soon.

I'm so angry that the lighting crew messed up our entrance for blood because that was supposed to be an epically creepy start with the lights coming on and off when we would freeze and run respectively but nope, the opposite directions happened and I think lots of people showed the confusion on their faces. Anyway, the piece was still great, so much adrenaline was pumping especially when we had less than ten seconds to sprint backstage to the opposite wings. There were probably blocking issues since we had almost no time to sort that out but meh it was an epic ending.

The fact that I couldn't do the grooving part of closing piece hurt as much as not doing D.A.N.C.E. But I'm just grateful I was able to join in on the whole cast piece and it was just awesome hearing the audience cheer. Seriously I was such a skeptic this entire six months but eventually I realised how spectacular it is. Always room for improvement but things finally did come together.

Lol not that anybody understood the story. They all shot a load of metaphorical crap at me which honestly never occurred to me. We only understood the 'story' as a piece by piece timeline. No meaning, rather just a good scenario to fit in a whole variety of dance genres.

Now that I've performed for the people who I wanted to see this production, I'm feeling pretty cbf for tomorrow's even though all the technical glitches will probably be fixed but the people I care about won't be there to see it. No doubt opening night has the best atmosphere with the audience and cast members but yeah. Shall definitely cherish it tomorrow, I'm going to be really upset when this is officially over, despite how much I hated most of it earlier. Never going to learn to appreciate things while we've got them. This is the last semester for a lot of people and not seeing them regularly to complain and physically die together is going to be so sad.

Now I'm exhausted. No tech run tomorrow so I've got half a day to catch up on the goddamn fucking Mt Everest of work and reading that I've fallen behind on fuck. And decide whether it's worth sacrificing more work to attend the after party tomorrow. Ugh.

Fun times, no regrets.

Having slight panic attacks thinking how behind I've gotten on work this week and considering the next three days are booked, the same will happen for next week and omg this is impossible. Started off on the wrong foot again.

Ankle might be capable of one or two pieces if Lisa does a miraculous job of strapping it up. Guess we'll find out tomorrow.

I miss salsa. Eddie and I were catching up yesterday and we both haven't danced since late last sem and I've already forgotten some of the moves we've been taught which is unnerving, I never forget dances.

My ankle is failing to live up to my and everybody's hopes of a quick recovery. Naturally only the miracle stories reassure you that one week will suffice before you're back to regular movement. Instead, five days have passed and I'm still limping. I was even desperate enough to suffer my first session of acupuncture today and it was so terrifying and not painless. There was a very unpleasant jolt everytime a needle went in. Don't even want to remember how unnerving it was to see those things poking out of my ankle. Ugh.

Anyway, despite not being able to dance, I can get a complimentary seat, or maybe help out backstage so I'm still involved somehow. There probably wasn't a better way to get in with these people in my first year.

It's a good thing nobody cares.

I feel like I haven't read any uni content in over a week, which is most likely the case. Been the laziest person ever, prioritising leg elevation to sitting at a desk (because it's not easy to do both simultaneously).

Someone needs to delete LBD, I am literally watching at least ten episodes every day. Just the minimum.

Time for the pity party to come to an end.

So it has been an unfortunate couple of days.

Yesterday, rehearsals started at 10 ugh, death, but both our pieces are finally looking clean! And lo and behold, then came Mad Hatter rehearsal and because my timing is impeccable, I decided to sprain my ankle. Cannot believe myself, this is the very first dance that we learned and it decided to fuck me over with less than a week till the show. Today it's stopped hurting and I can move it but ugh, the chances of being able to perform to some good standard on Friday is low, and I'd have to skip the week of uni to remotely recover. This is the worst, there is no way I put in this much effort for the show to not participate.

Let's also note that my my parents decided to leave yesterday for a weekend getaway so I'm pretty much stranded and unable to see the doctor until tomorrow.

At least a few days off will allow me to catch up with my much neglected work.

On a positive note, I finished reading LBD and it was very insightful. Guess I won't be able to watch the videos in the same way again, and I'm not yet sure if that'll be a good or bad thing.

Almost the end of week 2 and it feels like it's been ages somehow.

Yesterday's tutes were a little crappy. I was hoping for some cute English guy in my English tute but nope, 20 girls and 2 guys who look like they get up to nothing good. I like my tutor though, so there's a chance I can get through this unit.

Claw tute sucked because Wendy's timetable somehow changed so I'm alone there. Plus it was so boring I nearly dozed off and the feeling was so reminiscent of legal studies. Wtf am I doing there.

I finally bought Silver Shadows yesterday and spent the night with my mouth hanging open. It destroyed everything, EVERYTHING. I mean, this series takes the cake for complete character turnabouts, not impressed. How will I revisit the VA series the same way.

Today, my books came including LBD omfg so I spent the day reading that and I'm still only halfway and all I want is to skip to all the Darcy glory. Also my dad was telling me how much he disliked P&P... Naturally. We also spent a long time trying to think of ten female writers who would be included in the western canon, and it was not an easy task.

Tomorrow will be a loooong day of rehearsals which I'm not ready for because Jordan is going to kick my butt, especially after bailing on today's rehearsal. But Jen and I are finally going to try Hot Star. I can't believe the show is in a week, totally nuts. It should come together though, these things always do. It's time to have faith.

Toodles.

First day back in class after five days felt pretty weird, but Tuesdays are good (for now) because it's my day with Grace and Rowena and stats... So far the subject is straightforward with mean and median etc LOL idk Dmytro wasn't as engaging this time as he was last week, I think I missed out on a lot. 

Waste of a day. Cramps immobilised me so I skipped my lectures yay and still didn't manage to catch up on content. It would seem that time was better utilised watching Daria and catching up on PLL yay so guess I've got to suffer through reading at this hour.

Thought there'd be more to write.

Wow my eye bags are purple after staying on the phone with Anika till almost 4am and then waking up three hours later to haul myself to rehearsal at St Peter's ugh. I was also just on time so there was no time to warm up and man will I be regretting that tomorrow because Justin wasn't taking any laziness for Mad Hatter.

The full run through was actually pretty great, especially in comparison to last week's. Some of the dances just look so amazing. I'm also really proud of our last hip hop dance, all that cleaning last week paid off. Basically I'm kind of excited for the show and for the DVD to come in the future and I'll actually stop dissuading friends from coming because tickets are actually selling really fast. I hope a fortnight is enough to pull off a spectacular show.

So after six hours of exhaustion, Jen, Pearl, Clement, Angel and I trekked it to Newtown and walked from one end of King St to the other for very measly Japanese food. Only measly because in my eel bento, they gave me two pieces of eel which probably totalled the length of my middle finger. Then we were going to go to Pie Tin for dessert but sob it closed on us so we settled for Max Brenner. Aaand then we went to Tom n Tom's and just bagged out Clement's prude ways for a couple of hours and it was fun bonding even though the whole production is going to end in less than a fortnight and I won't see these faces regularly anymore :(

Ugh got to somehow wake up early tomorrow and manage to catch up on all this reading for English sob, don't know how I'm going to manage it.

Jen and I finally got our sweet potato fries yesterday before rehearsals which was a complete waste of time ugh and then apparently CBD traffic was really terrible so I decided to go to penno and take the 632 bus which was a bit of a nostalgic trip. LOTR3 was on so I just swooned over Aragon and as a result, wasted today's entire morning watching behind the scenes videos of the franchise.

It took me two hours to painstakingly read and comprehend the introductory chapter to grammar omg, chapter two is even harder helppppp. It's really fascinating though, and it's strange. I feel like I've never really studied anything that's interested me except maybe a couple chapters of economics. Or maybe because all that high school stuff and the way it was taught wasn't very engaging. You only realised how worthwhile something was after you studied it. In a way, this independent study (before consolidation in lectures/tutes) makes it more bearable. Let's hope the interest is retained throughout the semester.

This attempt at diligence meant sacrificing several movies tonight. Ugh, I haven't even started claw, fucking rehearsals tomorrow fucking St Peter's.

At least I'll have fresh homemade banana chips to snack on as the hours of doing nothing pass.