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Wednesday, July 31, 2013
kill me
Mid-Week 3.
Thanks to UMAT, I decided to skip school. That decision was made at 1am when I just could not handle belonging anymore. So I've spent the entire day on it and thankfully, my tutor clarified some things, though I've probably forgotten most of them.
Otherwise, half the day was spent on the phone with Christine as per usual, discussing the strange patterns in the friendships of people we know. We must have a reunion, I am so curious to know what we'd be like in ten years.
Sigh, accidentally napped on the floor in the last half hour so cbf work, need an early night.
11:20 PM
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
dour
It's pretty early which just gives me this false sense of relief because I will be able to stay awake for another five hours and Jesus Christ, I'd better have finished analysing my belonging relateds by then omfg, actually even earlier cause I need to go over them with my tutor tomorrow.
SLOW DAY. Christine got unintentional (or was it...) payback by sleeping in and making me fend for myself in chem. Not that I could answer anything anyway, I don't even wanna check the answers because they'll be nothing like my forced up spew of shitty assignment. Which was very mediocre, but I expected to do a lot worse so I won't complain. And also, Lane gave the impression that they were all crap, but I guess they took pity.
Should've jigged English. Had a sub that didn't mark the roll and let us do whatever we wanted so we did nothing.
Wow okay so everything was totally okay until maths. No intense stress or emotional breakdown but I nearly had one in maths just because wtf it was like learning new things all over again. Fucking hated prelim maths, it'll actually cost me a whole fifth of the paper. Ate a lot at lunch to sooth my overwhelming emotions and ugh.
Mum made a Japanese feast, sort of. Sushi, sashimi, miso soup and green tea ice cream which was good actually. Except I'll be starving within a few hours.
UGH felt like I was on a roll with belonging but that was just the introduction and topic sentence. I barely know this text lol, no time to read it again omfg I'm still trying to get through LTA (Letter 3, yes lol). And I really can't let myself feel relief for 4u considering my non-existent reflection. Which reminds me that Drayton promised to have her feedback for my major tomorrow and I'm afraid.
Tomorrow is UMAT and I don't want a small English lesson so I shall 'sleep in' and just do work at the library.
8:00 PM
Monday, July 29, 2013
steady
Week 3 whoo. But it's been a good day, I only had one period HEHE, felt amazing. So much better than half days.
Ugh just remembered that last night, I think I fell asleep for an hour on LTA but then woke up at 1am because my neck was aching idek I hate that text.
Felt pretty gross about 4u this morning so I decided to skip chem first period so I could just spend it in the library doing some proper editing. Poor Tanya spent her day on her PIP. But I was pretty productive, most things are grammatically correct as they are, but a lot of my expression has to be changed. Oh yes, got chem results and I didn't do hideously in one part so I guess we'll find out what I got tomorrow.
Short mentor because I had no reflection which is freaking Winch out. And me. But she's happy with the changes. Kinda annoyed because most of the changes she suggested were old bits she's seen heaps of times, but I suppose that's still preferable. I printed off a copy for Drayton, so I'm pretty afraid for that feedback after seeing her pen bleed itself all over Christine's 4u. Literally, it's red.
Ext was so stupid, I don't even want to go to English classes anymore. Attempted to brainstorm creatives with Anika and Ravie. I saw the sign (Y)
Spent last period discussing my 4u with Burke which he likes so that's a huge relief, considering he's male and doesn't get all the intertextuality. I still wish Eldridge is around but I don't think I can handle any negative feedback at this stage. I am completely blown away that I never realised one of Woolf's names was Adeline and then I unconsciously named one of my characters Adele...
So haven't done anything since now. A potential belonging related is loading, since the other one I had completely fucked me over for the speech so I probably shouldn't use it. And I've really got to make a move on my reflection, so tonight will b a 2u and 4u night.
Trial stress is starting now. My stomach keeps twisting.
I think it'll actually be wise to plan out study for the rest of the week. If I sort of briefly cover everything, maybe I can just scrap averages.
7:43 PM
Sunday, July 28, 2013
soooooooool
I am so exhausted. The ENTIRE DAY was spent rewriting 4u and I'm finally fucking done. Obviously did not stick to my goal of finishing at 5pm but all that matters is that it is finished, shittily of course, but I can hopefully get feedback now and only improve/edit minute areas. UGH. I've wasted this weekend. So after my shower, I will read Letters to Alice until my hair dries.
Alex left for Bulgaria today, lucky omfg. Want summer. I hope Friday is a nice day for mufti. It'll be our last mufti ever, I think, as well as our last proper day of school. Shit shit shit.
Should be thankful my George P is here now and not during trials but ugh cramps.
That is all.
11:46 PM
Saturday, July 27, 2013
nod
Just got back from a farewell dinner because Alex is leaving for Bulgaria tomorrow for like, a month. Hate this guy, he's gonna be enjoying summer while we'll be enjoying one of the worst months of the year. Trials in a week.
Fucks given: zero.
I don't think today was productive. Especially cause Christine called me first thing in the morning. It's just an omen for un-productivity. We spent five hours on chem and I think I've finished monitoring and management, except for finding an example of water purification but whatever. Matrix has too much and since school taught us next to nothing, really have no idea of what we need. We also sung for the duration of those five hours so that has probably drained my data. So much nostalgia.
Family went to this Indian/South African restaurant which was actually pretty impressive. There was this donut i.e. plain deep fried bread and it was so delicious, I could've just eaten those for the entire meal. But everything else was good too.
Late night tonight, last time I can really try and kill myself this week. Not sure if I should do 4u because it's essentially due tomorrow omg okay I'll do it, but I've neglected everything else so badly. Maybe I'll be glad to be rid of this major. There'll be no reason to ignore adv and ext.
I need to see Of Monsters and Men on Monday. Suk needs to do well in UMAT so we can go omfg.
Going to cry soon :)
8:43 PM
Friday, July 26, 2013
break
Week 2 over. No.
So I slept in an hour and took a bus that got me to roll call on time, though I didn't even intend to. Motherwell finally gave me 4u feedback which depressed me, she filled the whole thing up with red. She was careful to say that she didn't like it, just bits of it. Whatever, she couldn't even pick up the intertextuality and she's an English teacher... I guess it's a good thing she can't mark our school's.
Wasted an ext lesson laughing with Jess and Anika. Freaking Motherwell is so inefficient, she knows she has to see so many people about their creatives and she can't even just fucking limit the time she has with some people to idk TEN MINUTES AND NOT THIRTY OMFG YOU CAN'T JUST REWRITE IT FOR THEM. I'm really annoyed with her, maybe it's a phase.
Laughed about bus adventures with Nayomi and Christine. Apparently some little old Asian woman held onto this boys pant pockets on the bus HAHA.
Good lunch hehe.
I hate chem, sometimes I really wish I dropped that instead of legal because I'd probably do better in legal. But then I'd have no frees with Christine and Nayomi, and I'd rather have fun at school than ace my exams obviously.
Took a long nap after school and I haven't done any work since. In fact, might call it an early night. I can probably get to sleep even after that nap. I'm so grateful that I've been sleeping like the dead for the past year. I can't even remember the last time I woke up in the middle of the night except once in holidays.
I'm so not ready for anything but it is just too hard to care. Probably because I'm so set on art that I don't care about my ATAR but its just not worth stressing over anymore. I still want to enjoy my last less-than-two months.
Omg it's young Alex Pettyfer, what a beautiful little boy.
10:54 PM
Thursday, July 25, 2013
treasureeee
I don't even know why I try to get home early, I don't even start work till about now. Christine and I deleted fb off of our phones... I still need instagram.
Half day finally, Tuesday and Wednesday killed me. I'm going to miss maths so much, doing it and the class. It's become my favourite class, probably because it's the easiest to study for and I love Kolhagen.
Bonded with Herschell in formal assembly, haven't seen that girl since I dropped legal last term. I think we have one or two left...
Idk eco, we're going to finish the textbook in the next two lessons and I think I may actually just start crying because it's an overwhelming thought. AND ALSO BECAUSE MY BOOK HASN'T TORN ITSELF APART YET.
Didn't really do anything in my double frees, got too distracted. Lunch was fun! Idk elective music put on some random performances in the cola and Marshall played his violin and Burke played his drums and it was fun to watch. OMG SOME GIRL WAS DRINKING SHIN CUP SOUP WITH A STRAW. We couldn't stop cracking up and it probably looked like we were laughing at the performers which made me feel really terrible. And then yeah, did nothing 4th period but take an epic facebomb photo with Tanya and Christine, reminiscent of our sleepover hehe.
Tanya bought takoyaki, resulting in us missing the train and catching it with some awfully loud public school bogans.
UGH okay tonight will be an English night only, I can't do anything else. If anything, I need to do eco because doing monitoring and management notes have brought back bits of chem info and I've been doing maths. But eco... j-dog.
Can sleep in tomorrow but won't, going to force myself up to the library and werk.
7:38 PM
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
lark
HUM halfway through Week 2. I think all my introductory post (irony) sentences will be documenting the days and week passing, and before we'll know it, it's Week 10.
I wasted so much time yesterday watching bits of An Affair to Remember to make me cry, just because thinking about things worth crying about actually don't make me cry because I try to restrain it. But it was only tearing up, I think September 19 will see full sobbing.
Finally made the bus today except Carla didn't lol. And trust Chris to feel okay for trials.
Poor attempts at probability in maths, but I finished most of the Test Yourself just then so I think I'm nearly okay, except for the last questions of course, whatever they were. Apparently Marshall was only just being taught how to play the violin by Hughson, so cute :)
Wow, chem knows how to mess with us. It's taken most of us over half a year to understand what a galvanic cell is and now there's a fucking electrolytic cell. Chem is really just making me lose hope for HSC, scrapping a band 4 is sounding pretty unlikely.
FINISHED LABOUR MARKET IN ECO! That was essentially the last chapter and cue officially freaking out. It's pretty insane though to think how much we've learned. Eco is the only subject where the knowledge learned over the past two years can still be applied to understanding current issues at a basic level, which is very satisfying.
Revisited The Crucible last period which was actually alright, brought back many memories of a time that wasn't as stressful as now. When those assessments in Term 4 contributed like, 7% to HSC.
Inflation figures are out, showing that the carbon tax has pretty much had zero adverse effects on it and that all the Liberals had going was a scare campaign. Because most people were so thick that they didn't realise it already. And I just went on their website for the lols and wow, they actually have a link dedicating itself to the mess the ALP supposedly made and a pathetic video on their own aspirations for the country. Not sure what to make out of this early election, neither party seems to be offering anything to put themselves at an advantage.
Sigh, only starting work now, but I will get to my halfway page mark for 4u for editing. I can probably finish this on Monday, if not by it, and then just distribute it for last minute feedback because it's due so soon...
11:46 PM
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
plunge
It's almost Wednesday, it's almost halfway through the week. I have such a huge pent up of emotional stress and god when it's released... I'm afraid for that.
Slept in majorly today, I woke up at 8am and got to school halfway during first period but spent it doing eco notes at the library because nothing useful was happening in ext. Turns out half my row was away too.
No Mod A seminar today, in fact I think Motherwell said that'd happen after trials. Fucking perfect, that's the worst part of English for me omfg, going to have to rely on Nayomi or something. Otherwise, we won't over belonging creatives which I thought were shit but Motherwell liked them so... she probably won't enjoy my minimalist style? OMG GOTTA DO 4U AFTER CHEM.
We still haven't gotten chem back which is okay I guess, I mean, everything else was actually not that hideous, but this will be.
Omfg Nayomi and I saw Mr Marshall playing the violin with Hughson and some other chicks, it was such a strange image!
Finished micro in eco and forgot everything about labour market policies. This is actually our last proper chapter, the last actual chapter just sums everything up but it's freaking me out.
My hands are sweating, thinking about everything.
Wow just remembered how stressful last night was. Too many feels being felt and other feels being felt at once, it made me and Christine waste a good hour of potential work. BUT I'M HAPPY FOR EVERYONE!
Alright I will finish CFC notes and spend the rest of the night on 4u. So much rewriting to do right now, I'm actually freaking out.
Too fast, things are moving too fast.
7:39 PM
Monday, July 22, 2013
shhh
Week 2, and I slept in to commemorate it. Today was really cold, it was like chill biting through all the layers I had on.
Probability is a nightmare. But wow I think we technically finished the course cause we were assigned the rest of the chapter. Not that I remember ANYTHING from prelim, I need revision ASAP. But no time.
Winch was fifteen minutes late for mentor, but she approves my changes, despite them being rather ambitious. And she wants it in by next Monday which is impossible unless I do nothing this week but 4u. And she didn't help me at all with my reflection which is still going nowhere because I can't write about one thing without writing about another and there's no way to distinctly separate what I talk about UGH.
Rather useless double free in the library. It was too noisy to be able to work anyway.
Motherwell let us read belonging creatives in English and then we all headed to the hall for the Year 12 leavers package okay I was just stoning so I could avoid feeling tremendously sad. It's all over so soon.
Retarded bus ride with Nayomi, cause some normo swung around the bus handles when the bus stopped and she laughed for about five minutes straight while I patiently waited.
Ugh trying to get through probability hw and then I think I'll do chem till about 11 and then power through English. There's no time, I'm really freaking out now, I can't do this. WHY ARE MAJORS DUE NOW WHY NOT AFTER TRIALS.
Guess I'll stop complaining and work.
8:32 PM
Sunday, July 21, 2013
dead sea
Switching from writing 4u to blogging is probably going to ruin the train of thought I had but that's okay, I need to post before midnight. No one is blogging, this makes me sad. LAST TERM AND NO ONE IS EVEN RECOUNTING THIS? I'm going to be one narcissistic little fuck, reading my blog over and over these upcoming holidays, crying with nostalgia.
Anyway, today was not as productive as my to-do list had planned, but I did do two loads of washing, lots of maths and zumba so that's good enough. Working on 4u now and it feels good to edit, feels good to change bits that have just stagnated in my mind and bring me no pleasure whatsoever. Also, Winch is going to murder me because I haven't done anything since she saw me before assessments last term looool. Going to bs as much as possible tonight, and idk PLAN A REFLECTION OMFG. Maybe I'll just breakdown and earn some sympathy cause she hasn't helped me at all.
Gotta lay off the bananas and avocados and chocolate, no wonder my feels are out of control. I'm eating almost all the common aphrodisiacs according to facebook haha.
Had a nightmare that it was the day of our formal and I had no dress so I ended up coming in some hideous thing whereas everyone else looked relatively stunning. It was enough to wake me up.
11:52 PM
Saturday, July 20, 2013
well did you ever
It's been kind of a productive day, finished all of logs and exponentially. Must not fail maths, it's honestly the only hope I've got right now. And that's pretty much I've done all day, except for a long argument with the family about religion as usual, but I'm fine with it. Got no one else to rant my condemnation to.
Now I guess I'll just finish Test Yourself while enjoying the beautiful voices of Sinatra and Crosby. High Society makes me miss Foxtel :(
Sigh, watching Michelle Phan's boyfriend video makes me envious. He has the maximum amount of accent I could tolerate, or maybe I'm only extending that to him because he's so damn sexy.
Toodles.
11:49 PM
Friday, July 19, 2013
play
Last day of last Week 1 everrrrr. It's already gone so fast, I can't keep track and we won't be able to. Just want to cry.
Took an early night last night and slept in this morning but managed to get to school at essentially the same time. Failed 4u editing, it was too boring, I'm so over my work. I mean, writing that belonging creative was actually the first time that writing felt enjoyable for Tanya and I, because it was finally something new and you can't drag writing out for that long.
Chem was stupid, just ignored Gamble and discussed ANU. It's a possibility.
Fun Food Friday in Eco and we've nearly finish micro okay, Eco is the main indication of time going by cause the number of chapters left to learn equates to the remaining weeks till trials i.e. two omfg.
Lunch was fun, laughing about pickles and how cute Marshall and Hughson were, eating their lunch together ngaw.
Free last in a fucking loud and packed library of juniors, and I finished editing 4u. Just not the bits I plan to rewrite. Then I gave up and chatted with Burke for the rest of the period.
Good arvo! Bus'd back with jina and Nayomi and then Tanya just came over and we did very little over the course of like, five hours. Besides eating and TV, spent a lot of time trying to get her over her pedantic 4u editing. At least she accepted like, five of my suggestions (Y)
Ugh so tired so early now, so think I'll call it a night and wake early tomorrow and get started on work sigh. Feeling really anxious about 4u now, I feel that changing it is gonna make things even worse.
11:40 PM
Thursday, July 18, 2013
new faces
MM good day. I mean, might as well enjoy this week before we officially call it a fortnight till trials lololol.
The amount of knowledge that Ms Dunn possesses doesn't cease to amaze me, SHE JUST KNOWS EVERYTHING and she articulates it on the spot so well omfg. I still hate microeconomics though.
Lol got English back and honestly, won't complain about my overall mark but I do wish they were switched around because I was convinced that Hughes went better than Hamlet but Winch marked like a bitch and I think Motherwell eventually became sympathetic. OH and Motherwell wasn't even here thank god, cause we were assigned the 2012 belonging creative which I got half done but we would've been screwed if we had to hand it in or something. Dreading Paper 1.
Free with Ravie, Varsha and Abi outside because it was so beautiful and sunny. And there were all these letters on the benches and tables so I stole a G and probably ruined the science experiment or whatever.
Spent lunch with the VA people, feeling out of place with Carla cause our talents are not as substantial as visual arts. Everyone's is looking great, I'm excited for showcase.
Did a series test in maths which was okay until we got to the finance parts.
Omfg bumped into my mum at Priceline and all the Revlon lip butters and lip balm stains are TEN DOLLARS OMFG only got two of the new colours, except they're probably only new to Australia, but I got an orange-y one and this burgundy vampy one 8)
Alright going to do more chem tonight and then idk English just anything English because it all has to be done anyway.
7:41 PM
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
slumming
Blogging before attempting a measly amount of work for the night. Got trial timetables today finally, so now it's okay to speak of our prior (yesterday's) knowledge of our timetable kudos to Kolhagen. Sigh, four consecutive exams in the first week, and I'd really been counting on chem being last like it is in HSC. I guess the benefit is that I finish in just under a month, and I have no exams for the third week :) However, not enough time. I mean, a fortnight... HOWEVER it means I finish when a few schools do who start in week 3 and only go for a fortnight. So that's also a bonus.
English lecture on Hughes was pretty good but the Professor ANTONINA Harbus was way too fast and all that perceiver/teller stuff totally lost me. And I'm also annoyed on how much time and depth was spent on Fulbright okay, I literally know everything for that poem, it's the easiest one fml. And we barely got anything on Minotaur or Red.
Hate probability, kept getting my hw incorrect.
Ew we've moved onto micro in eco which is so awful. There's just something hideous about learning from the supply side. Ms Dunn did not receive my essay which I sent a week ago and now I'm just pissed off, she probably thinks I lied about it and only finished now.
Did some 4u in my free, but it's still only syntax editing, I'm still avoiding the parts that need to be rewritten and they need to be rewritten ASAFP because there's not even enough time to write 5 essays and 2 creatives and I can't chuck a fucking major on top of that.
Regretfully wasted my evening grocery shopping and at home. Going to get some chem done, hopefully finish fertiliser shit and then idk read Letters to Alice LOL. Or just look over Calvino groupwork, because reading the book hasn't really enlightened me about what to write or anything...
Forgot to mention that I broke a mirror yesterday :( The one in my little brush compact and now I'll have seven years of bad luck omfg let me be 25 soon.
I also checked out the new English syllabus and wut there is so much Woolf. Actually one of the options for Mod A, along with what we're doing, is Dalloway and The Hours! I'd love to do that but if that were part of our syllabus, my 4u would not be allowed to exist so thank god for that. But they did put in A Room of One's Own and Three Guineas :( Unfair, think lots of the independent investigation texts became syllabus texts. Oh and they got rid of FLW! Even more unfair.
Werk.
10:59 PM
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
hit me
It did not even feel like we left school for two weeks, and it was a good day :) Thankfully, waking up wasn't awful either, but that's probably because I slept around 2am which made for a 4-hour sleep cycle by the time I woke up.
Chem first with Sztajer and we didn't get our results which pissed me off. I was so ready for a bad start to the day and then denied it.
UGH did a belonging reading task in English which was relatively better than some other ones we've done but still bad and I would not have finished in 40 minutes because first text was so -un-understandable and holy shit, read one of the rudest 'personal opinion' pieces ever on tourists. So fucking racist, I don't know how to call the writer a bitch in an acceptable way.
Started probability in maths and uhm, possibly got Kolhagen into trouble BUT IDC we've woken up and we can prepare now. Semi-pumped.
Fun free outside VA, attempting maths and analysing Nayomi's VA. God, they all seem so artistically limited, it's not very much someone's own work when you're only going by what will get you marks. English is much better. Burke showed us the supposedly most unwanted song/music in America. It was alright for about a minute, and then the opera rap came in...
Sleep deprivation took its toll so I napped till 7pm sigh, but then I finished maths and semi-attempted belonging and now I shall do either chem or 4u.
Seowoo brought the nastygal order and omg my shirt looked sooo cropped, I swear it wasn't going to make it past my boobs, but I tried it on and it's perfect 8) If anything, a little too wide on the shoulders but maybe that's the intention.
10:06 PM
Monday, July 15, 2013
eve
Sob, last day of holidays, this is depressing, because the rest of our lives won't be a holiday.
Made myself a delicious omelette for breakfast and then idek why but I just watched the PLL pilot and lol everyone was so different. Should watch TVD season 1 again and revel in Stelena :(
Headed home to eat lunch and gave myself a proper manicure, buffing and all. All that polish and acetone was actually ruining my nails. Then we washed Buttons and I got to blowdry her and it was hilarious, she hated it.
UGH done nothing, except for maths. I understand you now, Anika. But I will do English this week. It only works if I'm really pushed and I'm praying we get timetables for trials this week. I just really want to know when ext English is so I can prioritise my study lol.
Going on a Miley/Hannah marathon to fuel my nostalgic depression. It's also detox from listening to We Can't Stop on repeat for about an hour last night with Christine, as well as several other old songs.
Last first day. Not ready for this and not ready for English and/or chem.
On the bright side, predictions for very mild days this week.
11:30 PM
Sunday, July 14, 2013
armed with nothing but a shadow
Semi productive day I think. Nearly finished all of trig revision which slowly came back to me after I finally decided to write up my formulas and now I have twelve pages of formulas for Year 12. Haven't quite thought about Year 11 yet sigh. Anyway I will hopefully have enough time to brainstorm a shitty intertextual dynamic Calvino-esque creative because I've got to hand in either a creative or essay. And Motherwell finally replied, saying she was sick and unable to read my 4u. But I'm sure she'll have enough energy to extend her wrath at my 3u failure. Seriously, need to maintain my rank and I can't have my creative (or lack of one) bring me down during trials.
I don't think I'll be able to wake up at 6:30 on Tuesday. Can barely manage 9 on a daily basis so this will be fun. I'll begin my alarms at 5.
Breaking out like fucking crazy, just want my period to come already so I hopefully won't have to go through it during trials.
Toodles.
11:58 PM
omfg
Finished If On A Winter's Night A Traveler. This is a momentous night. Now I can sleep.
1:34 AM
Saturday, July 13, 2013
Erica's!
Trying to recover from the food coma I just went through. I actually can't lie down for at least another hour.
Anyway Christine and I were somehow first to get to Erica's even though we thought we were late. Finally found the opportunity to wear my zipper dress :) Just stood around for half an hour and I think everyone arrived by the time it was an hour into the official start time lol. I drew stick figure stop motion of Me Against the Music dance Erica choreographed on her card hehe. BTW the restaurant walls were covered in frames of Golden Hollywood stars which was AWESOME. Got a photo with Clark Gable hehe god he's so attractive. And there was this portrait bugging me the whole time cause I can't pin down who it is omfg.
Sigh sad salads for starts (alliteration), but at least the avocado was good. Pizza took a long time to come and it was okay except it was all tomato based and yeah, I need barbecue sauce. Had fun sneakily pegging people. Ria had like, five pegs in her ponytail LOOOL. Bloated pretty quickly.
Trivia! Super original name: The Sexy Asians. Sigh managed second for the music topic but just kept kicking ourselves for not knowing stuff. Cake was so heavy and creamy, thought I was gonna die. It literally took my mum five minutes to drive to penno so I left on time.
Figured I'd attempt to nearly finish Calvino before sleep so I can work on the essay lol.
Can't stop listening to We Can't Stop lol. It's okay if I don't watch the video. It just makes me feel sad about Hannah Montana.
It was a great night. I missed seeing everyone. Happy for school now, don't fucking care about assessments, I just want to enjoy the company.
I need pug clothes. Planning to buy one from asos hehe and omfg Zoella bought this pug crop that looks like Buttons AND I NEED IT.
Toodles.
11:41 PM
ladadidadee
Friday:
Indescribably unproductive. Finishing that Eco essay has just relaxed me too much. I need to kick my habit of YouTubing in bed first thing in the morning, end up watching for about an hour.
Decided to go home after last minute gift wrap shopping to accompany my dog who, I've concluded, is miserable without me :( She's always so perplexed when my mum and I take her for a walk at night and then I end up leaving for the apartment each time.
Wasted the rest of the night with Christine as per usual. And made Erica a pretty awesome card in my opinion.
ANYWAY done nothing today either. However, I am five chapters away from finishing Calvino which is only forty pages so thank heavens for that. I like it now, somehow it doesn't make me fall asleep. Reading aloud to oneself helps too.
Got my hair up in headband curls. Decided it was better to experiment now rather than the first day of school. Hopefully they won't turn out as hideously as pin curls. I'll start getting ready for Erica's soon.
Mixed feelings about returning to school. In holiday mode, I can still half-heartedly pretend like there's plenty of time to go.
4:38 PM
Thursday, July 11, 2013
walk the wire
Ugh, woken up again by fucking upstairs booming out Bryan Adams from their surround sound. Why. WHY.
Anyway, I finished my monetary essay today, biggest relief omfg because that means Dunn will only kill me for a shitty essay which is better than a lack of one. Not even going to check my email tonight, not in the mood for bad news. Quickly went to Towers afterwards to finish buying presents. 18th birthdays are going to make me go broke.
Opting for an early night tonight. Maybe look over 4u again after I watch PLL and then wake early because I should get back into that routine.
Excited for Erica's!
11:45 PM
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
ceaseless
Hm, well made the first mistake of the day by sleeping at 4am. Christine and I need a detox from each other. Also, laughing fits aren't healthy at 3am.
I was forced up at 9am to accompany my stupid sister to get her learner's permit and then I went stationery and apartment shopping. New rugs and towels and highlighters and notepads!
I love my English tutor, she provided me so many useful things to brainstorm for 4u and now I think I can fix the sections I've been stuck on for ages. I mean, Ms Winch gave me some good ideas for second draft but it ended there. She just said the same things every session and it was just bullshit. I'M SO ANGRY THAT MOTHERWELL HASN'T GOTTEN BACK TO ME. Bet she hasn't even read my story and I fucking need feedback NOW.
Anyway, I must finish my monetary essay before I sleep and send it to Dunn early in the morning and then maybe I can make a start on a fiscal one tomorrow sigh. Halfway through this and I have no idea if the current generalisations are the difficult part or applying my knowledge to current economic conditions will be more difficult.
Nayomi got her top braces off!
I am going to make lipstick out of crayons. Such a fucking brilliant idea, I'M SO EXCITED.
I can't believe second week just flew by, HOW? Need to do ext, the whole weekend must be devoted to it because I am going to be slaughtered otherwise omg.
Toodles.
11:44 PM
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
windbag
QUICK POST NEEDED.
Spent the WHOLE day cleaning the apartment with my mum i.e. not doing work. Legitimately did nothing but it doesn't matter because the cleanliness is very rewarding. ALSO I ate seven slices of pizza and I still feel like dying.
Well I guess that was all I had to say. I've got to start my eco essays because apparently, Dunn is going to chuck a bitch fit at me if I don't hand anything in by Friday.
Okay goodnight.
11:58 PM
Monday, July 8, 2013
zany
Forcing myself to blog in commemoration of my sister's uneventful 16th birthday. I was forced up early at 9 to go to some overrated cafe for breakfast. Jokes, one car tyre went flat and apparently our wheels are rare wtf, ended up leaving at nearly 11 for a shit brunch because it was just an overpriced mediocre local cafe and the sweets and pastries were disgustingly sickening. Such a waste of time, I'd rather have just had plain but good old toast.
Edwina liked my 4u which is a relief since she's pretty picky about what she reads. I've planned out some possible MANAGEABLE changes I can make to it so maybe that'll work out.
Sigh went to see The Great Gatsby against my will, and wasted even more money in Gold Class. Because I expected nothing, I wasn't hideously disappointed. All I can do is applaud Luhrmann for sticking to the plot, getting the little dialogue from the book word for word, and the stunning Carey Mulligan. Otherwise, it was a shallow romance drama that failed to grasp the extent of moral and social decay of that period so yeah. It's cheap entertainment, so good enough for most people.
Ate Nandos with just mum cause lol, got ditched for Edwina's school friends. Whatever. Then I read out the first chapter of Gatsby to her which she stayed awake for. It was nice revisiting it too, last I read it was for crossing boundaries in Year 11 lolololol except that was also the graphic novel which was actually really genius. Textual boundaries (Y)
Fml spent $40 on a shit cake and then uhhhh those stupid friends each made a cake. There are four fucking cakes in the fridge and they all taste like shit.
Anyway I will sleep after this. Going to waste another day tomorrow cleaning the apartment with mum because that sounds better than work. I'm still only doing maths anyway, and I'd better fucking ace series at this rate.
I wish my family would stop being so convinced that I can even manage a 96 ATAR. My hopes plummeted and stayed down after hearing that our school average is low 90s at best. Guess I can easily get into art then (Y) maybe if I feel spontaneous, why not art combined with science? I mean, Gamble mainly turned me off science but I could give it another shot.
Within and without.
11:55 PM
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Bleak inhuman Loneliness
Unproductive day. Finished second season of Dance Academy and apparently new season tomorrow yay... more time wasted. And the whole show just made me so depressed about quitting ballet in Year 7. Missed out on learning pointe, and unfortunately you can't take casual classes unlike with most dance genres. Going to force my daughter or son to take it up at least during primary school.
Anyway, decided to stop neglecting my 4u and redo my reflection which obviously lost me that one mark and rank 1. The past reflections provide no particular template in terms of how to order what we talk about, or even what to talk about, so I guess the benefit is that we can be liberal about how we go about this.
My plate has finally stopped hurting me when I put it on and take it off! There's only that satisfying pressure when it's put on, which is probably a bad thing because it means my teeth are still moving very easily.
I've been looking up all the online publication things in reflections to see if I could ever publish my major work. That's a definite on my bucket list; get one work published.
Sister's birthday tomorrow and they're forcing me to wake up early to go to some patisserie for breakfast. Then I shall return home to work because I refuse to watch The Great Gatsby and waste even more money doing so in gold class. But then mum suggested either Chinta Ria or Suminoya for dinner. Hopefully Chinta Ria cause I'm not in the mood for a food coma. It's only been a couple months since I last went loool that was a fun night.
There's still half a day left. Hopefully I will have planned my reflection out.
5:46 PM
Saturday, July 6, 2013
MIDNIGHT
I'm starting to freak out about work some more, just because I've been so unproductive except for maths, and that's just series. Christine's inability to remember prelim maths just increased my panic... What is plane geometry HAHA.
Of yesterday, I can only remember that I made a delicious grilled sandwich for lunch. Otherwise, I did no work duh. Maybe half a page of monetary policy. I'm just finding less of a point to make notes from our eco textbook because it's just impossible to remember it all anyway and it feels shitty cutting things out which is all I do.
An episode of SATC prompted me to finally watch The Way We Were which had been sitting on my craptop for over a year now. Made me feel sad, made me feel like a Katie, but damn, Robert Redford. He looks like Brad Pitt, though I should say that Brad Pitt looks like him, and better. Ended up sleeping at 3am.
UGH woke up near noon this morning and turned the tv on for some light entertainment during breakfast. Big mistake. Dance Academy was on and I ended up watching for about three hours before I hauled myself to Towers to finish off my sister's present. Bumped into Mluk at Priceline! And we just stared at the cosmetic aisle for like, twenty minutes, before making our farewells. Sob, got my sister a dreamcatcher that I've been eyeing for ages, but I figured I'd find a nicer one another day so I selflessly bought it for her LOL.
I don't understand Pirates of the Caribbean 2, and why everyone is fighting over the chest etc, it's definitely the worst out of the franchise.
11:59 PM
Thursday, July 4, 2013
chase this fire away
It's been a stressful day. But I had a good dream.
Woke up and, remembering that I would need to take a license photo if I passed, my hair was just gross and flat and oily bleh, so I quickly did Zumba and then washed my hair. Fml rushed for nothing, my bus was late but I still made my train to Thornleigh.
God so nervous taking the test and freaking out about messing up the touch etc idk but it was all good and I got everything right WHOO GOT MY L PLATE HAHAHA. Photo isn't hideous, I look neutrally sad, which is better than angry.
Trained to Hornsby and rewarded myself with a milkshake at Bee's Knees and Christine met up with me WHO ALSO GOT HER Ls. It would've been such a bummer if only one of us or worse, BOTH of us, failed.
Went to Cafe Florence and had a very mediocre lunch which is not doing wonders for my stomach right now. We rarely go out, we have a very technological relationship, so this was nice.
Attempted birthday shopping but I ended up spending more on myself. Saving up is not working out very well.
Actually going to have an early night, I refuse to do any work. Get back on track tomorrow. A whole fucking week is gone.
11:43 PM
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
corrupted lungs
Shit it's Wednesday. Worst holidays AND LAST HOLIDAYS EVER. At least matrix forced me to do work, I'm so fucking lazy right now. All I've done is maths lol, refuse to touch chem and fucking fiscal policy is somehow so difficult to get through and I will kindly block English from my mind.
I spent last night watching Geordie Shore loool I love it. There's just something about British vulgarity that is so much more simultaneously disgusting and appealing than plain old American Jersey Shore.
Did nothing today except I just got home from the theatre after watching The Maids. The reviews I'd read were all terrible so I had few expectations going in and ended up coming out not disappointed. Despite Huppert's horribly thick French accent that made the audience miss half of the plot, Cate Blanchett just blew me away with her ethereal presence, I was just watching her in awe, and her delivery was so strong and she was just stunning. And the mis en abyme screen was not as distracting as I thought. Kind of appreciated it, considering my seats were way up high and back. Got heaps of free postcards and the Oliver Sacks book on sale that has been expensive online SO HAPPY.
Anyway I think I need an early night, I still keep sleeping so late.
So devastated, just heard that Of Monsters and Men are going to perform at Enmore end of July but that's literally a week before trials and most of its sold out already :(
On a final note, happy birthday Michelle, hope you're still sober you sexy woman 8)
11:39 PM
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
MICHELLE'S
Going to blog because I am not getting any work done because Hannah Montana Movie is on and this just makes me depressed compared to We Can't Stop.
Monday:
First day of July, officially halfway through 2013 AND MICHELLE'S PARTY! I'd spent the night before jamming to old tunes with Christine so it took a while to calm down to get to sleep.
Spent the whole day cleaning and now my sheets are all sorted and organised and my bedroom floor + table is finally clear.
Lalala Christine came over, hobbling in her heels omfg it was hilarious to watch. Then we got ready and Brandon got us all paranoid saying we were the only ones not there at 7pm. LIAR, almost ten people arrived with us and even more afterwards. It was so good seeing everyone again, even though it'd literally been a weekend since school ended but it's somehow felt so long.
Food was beautiful, even more so than last year omfg but I didn't last as long as last year. Two plates and I was done. Curse my skirt, it was fitted enough on an empty stomach so I spent the whole night making sure my middle didn't spill over the waistband.
Didn't dance as much as I'd have liked, I mean, Low didn't even play, but we had lots of fun twerking (or attempting to) and WTF my butt actually feels sore today...
In the end, just lay on the cold tiles with Seowoo, Elaine and Herschell, laughing on each other's stomachs.
CAKE WAS DELICIOUS OMFG. Honeycomb icecream with the chocolate mudcake was so deliciously sickening.
Thank you Michelle for an awesome night! A good way to delay buckling down to study. Hope you liked our present <3 p="">
Tuesday:
Sigh, woke up so late today and I haven't done ANYTHING because fiscal policy is so tedious, I cbf to make these notes so I'll probably move onto finishing series revision because I've got to do a considerable amount of trial papers since they're in a month... wow wow wow.
Okay back to work omg.
And Elaine getting her P's is motivating me to get my L's LOL looking at the answer booklet right now.
2:00 PM