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Thursday, January 31, 2013
Little pets get big baguettes
I can't fucking do this. And when I can't fucking do that, I do this. Oh blog, where would I be without you to whine about and egotistically read over my average life?
Alright, so yesterday was basically the honeymoon stage of returning back to school. Today, shit's serious again so school is shit again omg. Stayed up till 2am last night getting to 7000 words and my head was just throbbing all morning idek and Carla had a free first that bitch.
Eco first was quite bad. Seriously, eco is always 1st, 3rd or 4th which are the hungry periods and now we can't eat in Dunn's class, I'm starving. Can't eat in legal either FUCK MY LIFE COME BACK KARNUPS :'(
English was disgusting, idek Letters to Alice, how did this qualify for curriculum omg. It was nice to have Motherwell again though. And she demands our essays on Monday. Maybe after tonight, I can think about something besides 4u.
Free where I was supposed to do fucking eco hw but then got distracted by Pavani telling us about strange addictions people have. Legitimately crying with Ravie omg it was hilarious. Like the one where the woman drinks her urine and all /dead.
MENTOR! Our group is on a diet now, because Motherwell wants to lose her stomach looool. A bulbous ball on matchsticks as she put it. And then I forced her number out of her.
Maths was okay, going through challenge that I know I still can't do. We ended up spending a lot of the lesson watching Kolhagen's son play Mariokart and he was quite beautiful with his blond hair and blue eyes. She must have an attractive husband. Then Ravie was talking about butt clenches or rather.
Sigh, got home and napped till dinner. My mum is obviously deaf. I told her to wake me in twenty minutes. Suddenly, it's 6 o-fucking-clock.
I'm so used to constantly pressing Crtl-S to save my work that I keep doing it when I blog and hesitate about what to write next.
I'm so close to 8000 words and it doesn't even fucking matter because my story is not ending I KEEP DRAGGING IT OUT OMG probably just like Jiani, she's probably near 10000 by now. Fuck, then gotta annotate my bib and then bs some diary entries omg can I just die. And then we need to print two copies of our major... that is legit going to be about 50-60 pages altogether. Doubt I even have that much ink.
So tired already from staring at the screen. At this rate, looking forward more to editing than making a crappy finish to the whole thing. Think I'll get hungry too, probably need to find food at 3am. Refuse to not sleep tonight, I demand one hour of sleep minimum from myself. Gotta finish in six hours. Just like independent investigation.
I can do this bitch. (Irony from introductory sentence)
11:08 PM
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Forward
I'm happy. It was the best last first day of school, as Elaine put it. Granted it was technically a half day, but still. Downside: stayed up till 2am but I stopped as soon as the end of my sentence hit 6000 words and I passed out.
Met up with Suk, Sunhee, Seowoo, Abi, Tanya, Christine and Jiani for her birthday today hehe, went to this adorable vintage little cafe called Bee's Knees or something omfg the interior was just so fucking cute, I need to go back and buy some knick knacks. AND THE FAMILY ROOM WAS AMAZING OMG just this little room in the back which could fit like twenty people on the couches alone. It was just so cosy, so great for catching up with everyone after so long. Coffee was okay too, but the menu was pretty expensive. Just conversed about inappropriate things at an inappropriate volume. And as part of my present to Jiani (including 1D live concert DVD), I got her a cheap singlet and cut nipple holes Mean Girls-style LOOOL. So she can show off her new lingerie of course.
Back to school and got my gifts from Elaine, Joumana and Carla teehee, really like them. Except for Joumana's mars bar slices okay, I was on a path to getting fit dammit.
Marshall is fat as ever. It's depressing. God, swimming carnival... Anyway, pretty happy with my timetable in terms of frees but fuck, I hate my days. Like last year, there were some good days where it was just English and eco and stuff, but now there's got to be something horrid like chem or legal to ruin all the potentially okay days. BUT NO MORE MORNING CLASS FOR 4U WHOOO, thank god Winch lives far away.
Period 3/first lesson was eco, which was so boring, which reminds me that Hindy blogged LOOOL. Pretty amusing. I miss 311, it was so much more spacious. 313 just gives off bad memories of geography.
Spent all of lunch at the English staffroom lol, and admitted to Drayton I had 2000 words to go and she wasn't even like, blanching. MEANS SHE HAS FAITH IN ME. Or that she knows heaps of other people are just plain screwed. I wish she was marking mine, so terrified of Winch's criticism.
Last period was an unproductive free with Renata and Tanya in a virtually empty library, and I wrote not even a hundred words. Should've just gone home.
Alright, work. Got to have at least 7000 tonight so I can edit tomorrow. IT HAS TO HAPPEN FUCK MY LIFE. I'll watch PLL on the weekend.
6:39 PM
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
let's go be psychos
Okay last day of holidays forever. Because matrix will ruin my next two breaks so this is it.
BAD DAY THOUGH. Got up and all ready to go library today and on my way out, I slip down the stairs and jar my fingers so they're rapped in some sock bandage and feeling very sore and severely bruised. So obviously, stayed home all day and did nothing but attempt some measly maths, and ZERO ENGLISH. Legit, went to the doctor and then I napped till dinner.
Sigh, watched a TVD season 2 episode while cycling when Stelena was still going strong sob, I hate it so much ELENA KILL YOURSELF.
Finally finished my fucking language discussion but right now, I'm just really shitting myself for 4u because I've been stuck all day and I NEED TO FINISH TOMORROW TO DEDICATE THURSDAY TO EDITING. Alright, sleeping at 2am. Who needs sleep?
Nonetheless, excited for school :)
11:50 PM
Monday, January 28, 2013
Chocolate Hitler
The rain is pretty miserable. I still prefer the heat.
Met up with Michelle and Christine at macq and walked in the windy rain to the library. Oh my god spent two hours on maths with Christine, cause Michelle has her extension to do and all, BUT WE FINALLY DID THE TEST YOURSELF! So proud, means one achievement and one less thing to do. Challenge tomorrow. Then I just fumbled my way through English and progressed a measly 400 words of shit.
MICHELLE LOST HER MICROWAVE VIRGINITY HAHAHA idek how to live without a microwave. Suffer radiation for immediate hot foods. And Choong is a cool bean.
God walking back to the bus stop was horrible, it was crazy with the wind and rain and my umbrella flipped out while I was waiting for the bus. And all the while, it was still humid.
Watched Perks again with my sister. Had difficulty breathing because Lerman is so adorable.
Sigh guess I should try do another hundred words at least today. And then there should be many of us at the library tomorrow.
I want to go to bed.
11:56 PM
scream
Sob, Australian Open is over which really depresses me every year cause it was nice to always have something to watch and this signifies the start of school fuck fuck shit.
Omg stayed up till nearly 4am with Christine which was terrible. Don't know how to wake up for school. WHICH IS IN TWO DAYS WHAT FUCK. Did write a bit though.
Today, I vowed to finish my language discussion but fucking jokes, gave up at 300. And then I moved to maths which was okay, I'm hoping to finish the due work tomorrow at lib. Hopefully Michelle can help!
So Djokovic did indeed beat Murray, but mainly due to his injury. So irritated that the same happened with Li Na. Neither matches were particularly epic. But still pleased with the outcome.
Finally got to 5000 fucking words omg, but jokes I ain't gonna finish today. Maybe Tuesday. And the next two days editing, ready to hand in on Friday whoo. Then gotta impromptu some journal work omg noooo.
Alright 200 words and sleep.
12:28 AM
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Away
Shitty Australia Day. Sooo glad I didn't go out though because I actually accomplished some fucking English even though it took more than 15 hours. Really need to start sleeping earlier.
Anyway, I think I have 3u work due (for first week) set, minus the language discussion THAT I AM FUCKING DETERMINED TO FINISH TODAY. Cbf to fix my narrative so I just did my reflection for the shit one. Can worry about 1500 word one on the weekend. So fucked for belonging though I can't write this essay and I refuse to write two, just gonna write one motherfucker.
Sigh, women's final and Li Na lost which was just so disappointing despite her injuries. Almost had it second set. Almost.
Australia was on and idk it received such average reviews but I liked it... Maybe just cause its Hugh Jackman and his beautiful chest. Yum. Guh and then me and Christine stayed up till nearly 4am doing English. In the end, I ended up with 4800, which was about 1000 I'd done. Really hoping I can finish Monday/Tuesday morning. Need a lot of editing time.
I haven't read Letters to Alice or FLW. Or related texts. Or any research.
I miss school, really anticipating to go back, even though I will be punching myself for such words in a few days. Fuck, gotta do maths OMGGGGG.
Alright time to work. MEN'S FINAL TONIGHT AND DJOKOVIC YOU HAD BETTER SHOW MURRAY WHO'S BOSS.
12:10 PM
Saturday, January 26, 2013
demented
Shit, just missed my birthday deadline. Well, it was my birthday yesterday. Two minutes ago.
I was welcomed into it with a horrible serenade from Brandon, Suk, Christine and Tanya. I think it lasted about ten minutes at least. It was fun, Tanya read this article that advised men on how to suck their own dick. And then I probably stayed up till nearly 3am with Anika.
Woke up and opened up the rest of my presents which were two mugs (there were no Woolf/Austen ones) and two penguin notebooks (PEOPLE WATCHING BOOKS) and then this cute record book which I will fill in once I have finished Year 12. It sucks though cause there are sections like love life and jobs that I have nothing to offer.
Legit did nothing all day. Went to eat average but okay pho at Cherrybrook. I didn't even know there was a shopping centre there. Small albeit, but still. And then fuck, pulled out maths and was planning on doing the challenges that Kolhagen set but FUCK I COULDN'T REMEMBER ANY INTEGRATION. Stared for a long time at trapezoidal shit, then gave up and went back to basic definite integrals loool. Then I gave up and napped on the floor with my dog.
Went for Thai for dinner, it was pretty good. And then we got home just in time for men's semi which was one of the most devastating matches I'd ever watched, because now all we get to see is Roger's perfection slowly deteriorate AND HIDEOUS PEOPLE LIKE MURRAY SWEAR HIS WAY THROUGH TO THE GODDAMN FINALS. Like honestly, Roger's breaking win at 4th set gave me so much hope, made me realise today could be worthwhile, BUT THEN HOLY SOB. It was heartbreaking. Djokovic had better slam him so hard on Sunday. This is fucking unacceptable.
On the bright side, I ordered some more books and my dad bought me this destiny dice bracelet that is slightly tacky for my liking, but I've grown accustomed to it in the last few hours. And I like having something on my wrist. And he rush-bought it in fifteen minutes on his own, which is a commendable effort.
Alright. Three more days. To do a month's worth of work. Starting now. It's not my birthday anymore. Happy 17th.
12:17 AM
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Cock shock
Awesome day LOL. Macq again with Christine and then Tanya chimed. So it was not a particularly productive day. Got up at 7 which was way too fucking early omg, dreading school. Then found Tanya at macq centre and just bummed a bit and bought grilled crab and sauceless takoyaki. Lol Tanya's awesome unintentional sexual comment about being denied her package and how it came wet...
Christine came and we trekked to library which was blissfully empty and we didn't do anything till like, noon. OMG THERE WERE $2.50 SMOKED SALMON AND BACON AND CARAMELISED ONION QUICHES and we were gonna get them for lunch but they sold out :(
Anyway, progressed eventually with 4u. Not so much in terms of word count, though that progressed a bit, but I finally finalized my ending YES and got approval from Dr Green.
Lol Tanya slept like the dead. We will shaking and slapping and poking her and I EVEN TOUCHED HER BELLY BUTTON AND SHE DIDN'T BUDGE. Pretty funny, got some good pictures.
Came home to a bunch of Murakami and Swift from my sister as an early present :) and one day, she will find me the Perks CD. Excited to see what mother got me.
Tennis was horrible. Wanted to cry for Ferrer, it was humiliating to watch. Federer had better win tomorrow.
Anyway wanna post by midnight. Looks like I'll get sent into my birthday with Christine, Tanya, Suk and Brandon. And then possible celebrations on Saturday :)
Yay.
11:58 PM
denial
Just finished watching PLL. It is shit. All these shows get dragged on too long and just turn crap omg.
Avoided English all day today, saving that for tomorrow, and tried to do chem notes but I only did one lesson because acidic oxides was just so damn boring omg. Not even up to titration yet. But this is my last break from English. Hardcore from tomorrow on. And I'm kind of sad that the weekend thing isn't working out, because I have not leisurely gone out for weeks. Besides grocery shopping today. Bought three lipsticks cause Revlon was 50% off hehe.
Ooh, might spend Friday at the city with mum and just shop. And tomorrow night, big big book spree wheeeee.
Great match between Tsonga and Federer, but I only started to enjoy it in the fifth set. Everything before was too stressful because Roger was playing shit for his standards. Djokovic and Ferrer tomorrow and then Federer and Murray. Big four, minus Nadal :(
Shut up. Get over yourself.
12:34 AM
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
1111
Good day! Finally went to macq lib for the first time since my mum went there, and the library was definitely an upgrade from what they had seven years ago. Ugh omg stayed up till past 1am though with Suk, Christine and Tanya on Skype, and even though Suk's mic wasn't working, she had plenty to offer to the conversation. Sleeping that late was a bad idea, woke up at 7:30 this morning and rushed out without breakfast to leave for macq on my mums way to work.
Met Christine at station and we trekked it in the increasingly hot heat (lol) and Elaine, Eric and Leanne were there already and it was just nice and big and empty.
I am so proud of us three, we've all progressed about 1000 words today, even though it took a few hours to actually start writing something.
LUNCH WAS BEAUTIFUL despite trekking to the centre at the hottest time of day. Got sushi and then me and Choong split a box of I assume six churros, which were so delicious but I still feel sick. Couldn't eat afterwards.
So many people there. Bumped into Nayomi and Grace, and then Flick and Jess and stuff. Kinda looking forward to school again. And then people watching with Leanne. We attempted to write about this one guy eating outside, but I guess nobody around that area was anything but Asian and smart.
So I've napped from about 7 till now and the headache is still present, so I might avoid the computer and start reading FLW. Might put me back to sleep which sounds good. Was sort of considering the eco seminar tomorrow but cbf, want to sleep. Thursday macq though, counting on being 3/4 way by then.
I want a typewriter at one stage of my life. Make myself feel like an authentic writer without the laptop and ballpoint pen.
Alright goodnight.
11:16 PM
Monday, January 21, 2013
toora loora
Slow days.
Stayed up till 2am last watching Djokovic defeat Wawrinka. It was so fucking intense, I'm jumping at every shot. SO WORTH WASTING WORK AND SLEEP TIME. But it kept reminding me of last year's heartbreaking final where Nadal lost to Novak :(
My dog got 'injured' by another stink bug, except I think it released its vapour into BOTH her eyes, she looks like she's dead, which is really cute :) All she wants to do is sleep in my lap because she feels so much suffering LOOOL.
Guh, did chem notes today, because I was just tired of English. But tomorrow will be 4u at Leanne's place. DETERMINED TO GET THIS SHIT ON ITS WAY. Still really stuck though, so I gotta progress some tonight in order to continue tomorrow.
Roger's match is about to start, but I will resist watching. Cannot waste another night.
I can't even remember the last time I leisurely read. Or read period. Got to start fucking French Lieutenant's Woman, and finish Hardboiled, and more Woolf shit, OMG 4U RESEARCH WHYYY. Oh, and who could forget Letters to Alice... No desire to read anymore, which is just as well since I haven't bought any new books since school ended.
Huh.
9:00 PM
Sunday, January 20, 2013
y'all
Somebody in my block has been playing an extremely creepy lullaby melody that you only hear in horror movies. Please fucking stop.
UGH I attempted to make a schedule for today and I failed after the first task because this language discussion is too fucking hard. But I finished a shitty narrative that I will only hand in if I can't build on my original idea. Been neglecting 3u for too long, and seeing as it usually takes me a week to write an essay, which is only 1 out of 10 tasks I've got to do, idk how to finish everything in ten days. Just don't.
My mum made red bean soup (?) with coconut and condensed milk and she was supposed to put sago in but cbf, but it still tastes delicious. I love eating with the super round soup spoons. Makes me feel classy somehow. It's making me pee every ten minutes though.
I'd been hoping to have cleaned out my wardrobe by the time school starts, but it'll take a whole day which cannot be spared.
Alright, back to work. Back to fucking work.
2:17 PM
Saturday, January 19, 2013
bounce
It feels like Sunday cause it felt like matrix ended Friday.
I've barely done anything all day. Restarted another sex narrative, but it kind of failed at around the same wordcount as the first one did sooo... things are obviously working out well. And idk if I should make my major character a lesbian either. Until that's decided, totally stuck.
Finished half the floor of le parents' room, so one more day and the top floor should finally be done. And I hope we're going to hire proper carpenters or whatever to do the bottom floor.
Ha, Federer vs Tomic was a foolishly anticipated match, bet all those ads supporting Tomic are wondering how they wasted thousands. Tie break was good but last set was just shocking.
Alright, still early in the night so time to attempt more English. I'm a bit worried about leaving 2u and 3u, but I think I'd be slaughtered more by Winch than Motherwell for handing things in late.
9:39 PM
Friday, January 18, 2013
standing
Thursday:
Was the last day of Matrix and it was hot and I missed the train but I suppose that was a stroke of luck since Anika did as well and we ended up on the same train. That girl does not deserve a phone. I think 70% of my calls to her are missed calls.
Matrix provided free pizza! Somehow, pizza that's not made in Castle Hill tastes better. Michelle and I ended up wearing almost the exact same thing LOL claps for kmart clothes.
Spent a long time going over homework questions and Jason moved next to me for the test LOL but it was sort of redundant because I can't read his writing, nor understand his speech. But if not for him, idek how many marks I would've lost in multiple choice. Topic test was thankfully simple, and Louise let our class skip the loooong question on acidic oxides, which the first class had to do hehehe. I love her, no regrets coming the past fortnight. Felt good to finish and then we spent a long time trying to get a photo with Steven.
Went to Epping with Michelle and Tang, which was an entertaining train/car ride. Won't see Michelle till next holiday :(
Basically spent the night watching rather disappointing tennis. Federer won with ease and I am actually just so damn excited to watch him kill Tomic SO SO SO EXCITED.
Friday:
God my mum turned the aircon on at about 8am, it was that hot already. So I easily slept for another few hours. Then we spontaneously decided to go to buffet, which was boring and the food just kept refluxing from my stomach.
Such an awesome match with Djokovic and Stepanek, they were just so cute and even though it was a clean three set match, easily one of the most entertaining ones ever. Ugh food finally settled after four hours so I whipped out my intense zumba disk and pretty much tried not to faint for forty minutes. Then cooled down in the pool and we actually had it to ourselves for over an hour. Hopefully burned a lot of calories today.
Vampire Diaries is so bad. So so bad, my heart was just aching for Stefan and I hope Elena dies. This whole season is just bullshit.
Anyway, gonna see if I can do any 4u tonight. Work can start tomorrow when the weather cools down, and then hopefully that 4u day with Leanne and Christine.
11:24 PM
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
unlikely friendships in my pants
Good couple days. Is it crazy that I like Matrix now?
Tuesday:
Woke up early yesterday to have some individual homemade lunch and finally saw Suk and a bunch of us just hung around the fountain having some gurl time. Lesson was pretty bad though, I'm still unsure of what titration is, which is probably bad considering it's as big a topic as ethanol was last term. But acidic is definitely interesting, so much better than Term 1 and the next two topics I'm guessing. Also, Louise is just so cute :)
Michelle parked too far so we got Eric to drive us to her car looool.
Holy shit, homework took soooo long to do. Stayed up past 1am with Anika, Christine and Choong and we were probably working for three hours. So horrible.
Speaking of, Anika, here is a list of funny things you said yesterday. You thought that an elephant's trunk also functioned as its dick. You called distilled water diluted water. And I know there was one more thing but it's not coming to mind, so those two will have to do.
Wednesday:
Got to stra early cause Michelle wanted to take Polaroids but then she went home sick so that plan didn't work out. Just hung with Christine and Anika, who ate a pathetic salad while I ate a kebab :)
Lesson was chill today. Last theory lesson, and as Louise puts it, halfway through to our HSC in terms of learning. OMG found out that she has two pugs, which just created this very unique connection between us. Except hers was pretty ugly. OMG Steven and Jason came in crying from eating 'fire chicken'. Gonna miss those two, making me and Anika feel like shit. Anika thought a goat was a male sheep.
OMG hilarious thing happened at the station. Some Chinese lady went to Anika and started speaking to her in Chinese. Wut. DID I NOT EXIST LOOOOOL but I couldn't understand that she was saying Flemington until Anika butt in, so thank god for that.
I've been attempting to learn Me Against the Music, which was so tiring. Tutorial was shit so I had to keep watching the proper mv which flicks through the scenes so quickly, could barely make out what was happening.
Ugh, should study for topic test tomorrow, but not doing English for one day makes me feel so out of whack, so probably focus on that tonight. Ridiculously fucked for it, because school starts in two weeks. Also haven't watched PLL AND TVD COMES OUT ON FRIDAY. Cue meltdown: 29 January.
Alright time to work.
9:43 PM
Monday, January 14, 2013
shut up
Made the bad decision to edit what I've got of my major and now I'm stuck again. UGH maybe I'll go do some chem.
It was so windy today and I made another bad decision to wear a dress. I'm sure I flashed a lot of people. Anyway, got to stra for lunch at Mojee, and it was spicy. Inhaling the stuff always clears my sinus LOL.
Matrix was okay, we finally started titration and even though it was just calculations, it was okay to get the hang of. So I gave myself and Anika a pat on the back (Y) Got some yogurt in the break and started talking about cheese with Louise (rhyme). She's so cute.
Went on a loooong walk with Buttons and the fam, and we met this chocolate labrador WHICH REMINDS ME THAT CHRUS GOT HIS DOG OMGGGGG seriously inviting myself over. My dog is completely battered out now. Can't believe she's turning 6 this year. Already lived half her life.
Yes I give up on English now. Who would've thought I'd have to rely on chem to make me feel better. Better fucking ace chem, no joke. There's this trend where I do okay in term assessments and completely bomb out on half yearlies and yearly. It's rarely a vice versa thing.
Australian Open started and Nadal isn't even competing, so I've lost half my purpose to watch. The other half is Federer, but that will only get interested by quarter finals.
Hopefully meeting up with Suk before matrix tomorrow. I haven't seen anybody all holidays, except Carla + matrix.
Those post-exam massages never happened. My back is killing me, and butt too, cannot stand sitting for so many hours a day.
9:15 PM
Sunday, January 13, 2013
delete me
Did half a Crucible paragraph which is about as much 2u as I can tolerate. Thus, moving to 3u. Oh and obviously, neither Christine nor I completed our 4u goals. Maybe today.
It's really cold; even raining.
Was constantly distracted from work because my sister was playing Wii and then we started playing Mario Kart and checked out what happened to our Animal Crossing LOOOL things were fun back then.
I was looking back at some fb photos from school and I really miss school. The forced routine gave some structure to each day. I swear all I do is check my Tiny Tower.
I really want a dreamcatcher, but god they're so expensive for something that is very small. Not that bad dreams come often, but it'd be nice to keep them away longer.
4:03 PM
Saturday, January 12, 2013
boo fucking hoo
It's not a good start if Saturdays are unproductive. Sunday will be a nightmare.
Stayed up till 2am last night playing Wii with my sister LOOOL haven't touched that thing in a couple years. Played Mario Kart and fell off the tracks idek how many times, and then switched to Wii Play. Bad idea. So tired this morning when Christine woke me at 9:30 which was way too fucking early omg. Plus it was already warm so it was too hard to get back to sleep.
Sushi for breakfast and then me and Edwina worked on the puzzle and finally, at lunchtime, WE FINISHED. 1500 pieces took over 3 weeks, which is a poor record. 2000 next (Y)
Had another huge sushi platter for lunch because we had 1kg sushi rice leftover from yesterday omg, done with it for a month.
Friends has been on all day, I love how it never fails to amuse, though it was a successful distraction from fucking belonging. That doesn't seem to progress beyond 200 words. But I am aiming to have done hopefully 2000 words for 4u today. Maybe 250 words per hour till midnight. NEED TO HAVE DONE SOMETHING THIS WEEKEND. Matrix hw was hard, so lost with so much theory.
Timothy Dalton is an awful James Bond. He's all scruffy and unrefined.
Keen to watch Hitchcock, though my family was too afraid to watch Psycho, and I'm hoping that there isn't too much of his movie in the movie. ALSO keen for Glebe/gallery excursion with Suk, and probably Abi and Tanya.
Alright time to work.
9:29 PM
TGIF. I'm so glad it's the weekend, really needing a break from this week.
Slept in till almost 11 this morning after watching Coco and Igor till nearly 2am. Personally prefer Audrey Tautou in the role.
Today was a boring lesson, I'm so lost. LCP was better to learn. It was funny though in the break when Jason accidentally walked out of the elevator at level 6 rather than 8 LOL. Omg and he was telling me how disappointed he was with his atar estimate, which happened to be above 99.... Anyway got a picture with Louise at the end. SHE IS SO CUTE. And I spent most of the lesson trying to look for her belly piercing. She must've been a cool kid.
Went into the pool and attempted to tread water for ten minutes which was so tiring. But then rejuvenated with sooo much sushi and sashimi and watermelon. I love summer, it feels so good wearing so little clothing.
Watched A Breath of Scandal, and it was unbelievably shit except for the fact that Sophia Loren is completely stunning omg. Now I'm watching the Polly Pocket movie and drowning in the materialism that is their lives. SHE HAS A PRIVATE JET AND AN ISLAND AND A THEME PARK ON THAT ISLAND AND A WARDROBE LIKE CHER IN CLUELESS sob, their life is so awesome :(
No work today. Hardcore tomorrow in the near-40 degree heat. Ooh I painted my nails for the first time in a long time. Maybe since last holidays. And I also haven't written in my journal for a while. But I'm washing what is soon to be my Happy Jar :)
Oh shit, missed my midnight deadline.
12:09 AM
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Warta is a lickwood
Was planning on an early night tonight, but chem is taking too long for that to happen.
Today was a good day. Finally had lunch with us people from Matrix, minus Jina, but Choong adequately replaced her LOL. Nah I miss Jina, but I feel we'd be much less productive if she were still around. Jokes, me and Anika are just... Thank goodness for Steven and Jason. Anyway, had pho which satisfied my craving. LOL had so much fun taunting Anika about her vegetarian attempt. Poor thing had a tiny bowl of egg fried rice.
Lesson was so dull, really hard to stay awake. Got an artificially sweet oolong tea only cause it was cheap, and Ngo stuck my straw onto the snowmans crotch area. I thought I was gross.
Watched Pride and Prejudice again. Sigh, so beautiful. Now I'm excited for Anna Karenina and the collaboration between the same director and composer that do both those films WHEEEE soundtrack better be amazing. I'll just ignore the hideousness that is Aaron Johnson.
This lessons homework is SOOO long, and I only just finished. Since I can't sit at advanced, I might attempt a bit more 4u and have a relatively early night ie before 1am.
11:40 PM
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
optimum hypocrisy
Good day today :) Besides staying up with Anika to finish chem, wow it was really hard. What's worse is we'll probably forget it by the time school starts and have to relearn again.
Today was thankfully cool. Going over homework took almost 45 minutes, pretty ridiculous. It was satisfying putting a big fat cross on Steven's book when he forgot the reversible reaction arrow. Oh, we met Marlynne, but Louise calls her Merlin LOL. Lesson just flew, ended up spacing out by the end.
Train'd to Homebush and finally met Tang LOOOOOL. Met Elaine and Christine at Homebush or Stra library, and the room they found smelled of sweat and there was a creepy curry man in there. Work did not happen with Anika because she kept talking since her laptop died immediately. However, I begun my first Crucible paragraph, so that was enough encourage to proceed to 4u. Probably started working when Anika and the man left, as I now have 1100 words. Actually I wrote about 200 more before going to Matrix. It feels good to do it in the morning, refreshing.
It was hilarious on the way back to the station, where Christine was saying something about how she nearly tripped in the past, and then she legitimately tripped as soon as she said it. If she hadn't grabbed me, would've been a serious faceplant.
Watched PLL and I don't even know where the show is going, because how can everyone be a suspect and how can anyone actually be the evil person? TOO MANY HOLES.
Finished chem hw with Anika within an hour! So much pride, we took an hour alone on question last night. And tomorrow is lunch with the Matrix family, which I miss, since they stopped doing the arvo classes. But we'll probably get two quizzes tomorrow on LCP and acids :(
Hehe nobody cares.
11:59 PM
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
2600
Allowing myself to blog because I actually fucking progressed with 4u omg, never felt so good to write. But then I got stuck again so yeah, mood down and now I'm debating between doing 3u or 2u or attempting chem again.
Jesus, lesson was really hard today, my mind doesn't process things fast enough like Steven or Jason dammit. I sort of rote learned it though, except for the pressure bit. Fucking Chatelier. Louise is so cute though, and omg she has a tattoo on her stomach. Her shirt rode up while she was writing on the board. Basil is really gay. It was hilarious, he's so retarded. Anyway, hw was too hard. Probably left a quarter of it undone, and they're the longest questions so yay.
It was really hot omg, and the wind didn't improve things either. Got driven home by Michelle, and our thighs were just sticking to the leather seats, which were burning when we first got in. So horrible. Jumped into the pool after dinner, but there was a stupid girl with her perverted looking dad when me and my sister got there. She kept screaming One Thing lyrics and bombing repeatedly into the pool. Then they left and it was empty for 5 minutes before a bogan family came and started drinking beer and swearing about the place.
I just calculated that if I write 400 words a day from now till literally the day before school, I will have about 8000 words. Ha. Totally disregarding the other 5000+ words for the rest of English.
Alright, TIME TO WORK.
11:20 PM
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Starting off by saying that it was not a horrible day. Maybe because I had such expectations for an extremely horrible day that things couldn't have gotten worse.
Firstly, however, staying up past 1am was a baaaad idea. So tired this morning, and I barely did work like I promised myself I would, except write a paragraph for 4u. Winch is going to be so disappointed. It wasn't very hot either, just uncomfortably humid.
God, forgot how disgusting the western line is. Positively suffocating with Anika on the train, it was the biggest relief to get to Stra. HOLY SHIT IDEK WHAT THEY DID TO MATRIX. Took down all the walls and the twisty corridor thing and now it is just huge and open, I don't understand why though. Most of the class was there, but Yvonne wasn't :( And Basil remains HAHA had to restrain my laughter when he paraded in. Oh and Sarah joined our class from Abbotsleigh.
Lesson wasn't too bad because we'd covered a lot of the stuff in Year 10 (really miss Ms Smyth), it was just tedious. However, was unaware that milk is acidic. But then Louise said that this topic involved lots of calculations, which is just going to be nightmarish because, well, it's maths. Anika shouted me Yogurberry :) Eastwood seems to taste better somehow... and the amount of yogurt that comes out after one 'pull' is kind of ridiculous, it was way too thick LOL.
OMG watched High School Musical 2 with Suk when I got home dkchslkoihdoahjkbheuo BEST NINETY MINUTES EVER. But then there was a 4min blooper reel (where Zac did a booty dance) and a 45min rehearsal cam looking at all the behind-the-scenes learning choreography omg. Just sung my heart out and I suspect the whole block heard, but that's okay. It was so joyful. Zac was so adorable (how dare Tanya describe him as overweight) and he and Vanessa were so perfect. I used to have faith they'd get back together in the end, but it's been two years since they broke up...
Sigh, so now it's time to finish chem and resume English. OH and check Belvoir tickets for the upcoming shows Tanya and I are planning to attend with our empty wallets and ticking time bombs.
Tomorrow hits 40 degrees. Instead of lying naked on my bathroom tiles, NO we're stuck in a classroom who's air-con is not functioning at its optimum. Going. To. Die.
Okay work.
10:34 PM
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Okay rant.
ENGLISH IS TOO FUCKING HARD. THIS IS FUCKING UNFAIR OKAY, WHILE TWO CLASSES ARE SLAVING AWAY AT STUDYING SOMETHING THAT IS STILL UNABLE TO BE UNDERSTOOD, THE OTHER TWO CLASSES ARE FUCKING CRUISING IN RELATIVE TERMS OF UNDERSTANDING, IT'S JUST SO UNFAIR.
I still can't explain what textual dynamics is. It's kind of like rote learning to write an essay.
How we're supposed to complete all those tasks for school by the time school begins is beyond me, but then of course, not everyone works at my rate.
Advanced is a piece of fucking shit too, they're going to make me hate Pride and Prejudice, which will be the biggest despair because I love it so much. In fact, might go reader Darcy's proposals now to uplift my mood. Don't want to think about Crucible either...
Jess, how are you alive? How did you still pass English? TEACH US YOUR WAYS.
End rant.
An attempt at another 50 words and I'm off to bed. After I scream to Anika.
10:06 PM
olive tree
Because I can't sit through any more textually dynamic narratives that makes me feel like shit about my failed one in progress.
This is the last day of freedom. Once matrix fortnight is over, it's one more week of fucking cramming and crying and more crying to get everything done in time. If I don't manage an A for half yearly exam, fucking quitting matrix. Ain't worth my money.
Anyway, the day was spent tidying my room, and the floor has finally surfaced again. My mum got me a plant called rabbit ears and it's kind of ugly, but the plant feels like very coarse fur. Found so many old memories. Like the sheet of potential dates me and Carla wrote up for formal. Pretty funny how things actually turned out. Then Anika called and just had our usual spaz about how fucked we are, and complaining about matrix. We had a skim of the textbook. Acid looks really boring. It's going to be a fantastic fortnight.
English is too hard, so time consuming.
I stayed up till 2am last night watching some random Australian movie called 48 Shades (of Brown). Idk, it was so anticlimactic. Idk how they film vomiting scenes, like this girl who just threw up on the guy and you see it come out of her mouth clearly, so idk is she meant to hold in some oatmeal or something? Pretty gross. Reminded me of Jiani's somehow.
Zumba/exercise for the first time this week/year, but then I ate four slices of pizza.
My almonds have been soaking for three hours and the skin still isn't coming off. Really want to snack on them. Must thank Anorah for sharing that delicious tip.
Holidays make me feel like shit. It's a wake up call to show oh, we're still friends, but we're obviously not going to stay friends in nine months. So all in all, I have zero friends on leaving high school. I'm too lazy. It's nice being alone, until you're aware that nobody else is, and you're alone on your own.
8:24 PM
Saturday, January 5, 2013
iarfh
Mm good day today. AND GOOD NIGHT. Last night, stayed up till 2am with Suk, gushing and reminiscing over Disney and Nick and Hannah Montana (which I was also watching) and Taylor Swift OMG, it was just such a joyous night.
This morning was very hot already, and I haven't done any work obviously. Failed miserably at my attempt to organize my drawers. My floor is just omg. I think I'll get a second bookshelf, just to clutter my room a little more. But I'm afraid my current bookshelf will tip or break from the weight of too many extra books. And way too many textbooks somehow. Can't fit anything anywhere.
Decided to cool down and went to the block pool and it was awesome because it was empty and actually relatively big and very clean. It'd be so perfect if I could hire it out and have a party there cause there's this shaded big table thing and two barbecues and bathroom and shower and sauna. Going again tomorrow. Should just tread water for ten minutes for daily exercise.
Wasting more time watching Bond. All these really hot girls... Now Connery is massaging Basinger and I'm feeling very jealous.
Sob, dreading matrix so fucking much, it's going to be so horrible. And how a week of the new year has already passed is just beyond me. Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck.
10:46 PM
Friday, January 4, 2013
disconnected
I predict that today was my last outing. Too much fucking work, anxious all fucking day.
It was warm today and really sunny, so I actually slathered on sunscreen and remained feeling sticky all day long. Bus'd to city, and some fucking old asshole made us get up for two women. BITCH PLEASE, WE FUCKING PAID AS WELL. So fucking rude.
Eric was late so we just wondered around QVB and trekked it down to Chinatown and we were planning on eating at Mamak, but after walking past, spending ten minutes at the poster store and coming back to the restaurant, there was already a queue of nearly ten people. Sigh. So of course, we resorted to the usual udon/pepper lunch. Got a chatime/movie ticket deal (Y)
I hate how disappointing Les Mis was. Really, all that was fantastic was Anne Hathaway, and she was only present for the beginning and very end. Otherwise, it was pretty boring, and way too much singing. The large chatime also made me pee twice. I'm sort of glad that Valjean's death shed out one tear from me. Otherwise, the most emotion I had, besides listening to Fantine, was shock to the outburst of the guns. Malkovich was a much better Javert than Crowe.
Attempted another exercise of maths at home. Very slowly, and now it's time to attend to English, because Winch finally replied to me and she obviously expected that I'd done a considerable amount of research and writing these holidays. Skipping beach for work tomorrow :(
Goodbye.
10:55 PM
Thursday, January 3, 2013
low
Matrix is in four days. I think I'm going to kill myself. I mean, it's fail English or fail chem.
Went shopping yesterday with le mum, and found some sales and got a few pieces and then omg, found a Narciso Rodriguez perfume for only $69 and it was 75ml oidhcosihxoabsdohuesio best deal ever. You pay that much for 30ml usually. Then I spent the rest of the evening/night fucking sorting all my prelim and HSC sheets, and finishing my book shelf. What a nightmare, but at least it's finally done. Oh, and uhm, I have fucking 8 chemistry textbooks...
Went to Eric's today, and essentially did nothing but read one chapter of Hardboiled, still without a clue of what is going on. Then we drove to Eastwood and ate an enormous bowl of handmade noodles that had a lot of pepper in the soup, but it was okay for less than ten dollars. Then finally had Praus, which was very delicious and so much cheaper than fucking Yogurberry. Very bad memories of Yogurberry after Jiani's.
Drove to Castle library and sat myself down to only two chapters of maths, but whatever, it's an infinitesimal achievement. Eric left but then Carla invited me over so I wasted a dollar on the stupid bus ticket since he ended up coming back later. Was rather excited about her cookies but they turned out to be cookie-bread hybrids LOL. Just watched Friends for most of the time till Eric came and we had some frozen dinner.
I feel I should do some work now. I think I'll attempt this forsaken belonging essay. And knowing I'll give up within half an hour, I think I'll do the ext annotation. Really really fucking shitting my pants for 4u, I just can't write it. IDK WHAT TO WRITE.
Alright, time to work.
9:19 PM
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Can't love anything
First day of the year, last twenty minutes of the first day of the year.
Stayed up till 3am last night, talking to Christine and Angela and a very drunken David which was highly amusing, and then Anika. It would've been a very shit NYE if Christine hadn't facetime'd while the fireworks happen, so thank you for that babe. Damn, champagne makes strawberries taste fucking deliciously sweet. Anyway, it was an okay night. Not a horrible start.
I felt like watching Orlando today. Just marvelled at how amazingly dynamic it is. It's so rewarding watching it and picking up on all those things Potter did, even after studying it fucking crazily for a whole term. I love and hate extension English.
Then I actually pulled out my eco textbook and workbook and started rewriting and trying (in vain) to understand fucking bop idek, got distracted half the time by Sabrina anyway. Humphrey Bogart is just as handsome when he's 50.
My room is finally done. Without the carpet and now with dark floors, it looks so unfriendly and unhomely.
I decided to watch Puberty Blues, emphasizing the extent of my boredom. It makes me feel like shit afterwards. And the two chicks are pretty pathetic.
All these plans for the holidays are fucking falling apart because MATRIX JUST SITS ITS FUCKING ASS RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF ALL THIS POTENTIAL FUCKING FUN OKAY. I want to not go so fucking bad, my day is wasted from 11am to 6pm. I haven't even started 4u. Cue breakdown, I just want to kill myself. Entering the new year is a wake up call to just how fucking screwed we are.
Gotta post by midnight.
11:57 PM