Just came back from Towers and I finally got a dress for baulko, so I'll have to return Sunny's. It's very plain, but it's got some cut out design on the chest so I like it, but I have to wear an invisible bra /sigh. At least its not body con, I have given up on my body. Also got another maxi skirt whee. They're always so expensive otherwise. Summer is so delayed.

Yesterday was a good break from matrix. Read Sense and Sensibility all day and I finally finished today and now I see the basis of characters from which all the other characters of Austen's other books were created. In a way, it's a bit unoriginal/repetitive but whatever (Y) Also watched Sunset Blvd. Men were so attractive then. Masculine with their suits and shoulders. Sigh. Wish emoji would appear on blog.

Should probably get matrix homework out of the way, considering how easy I forget information of duh subjects but fuck these holidays, I'm not even getting adequate reading time. And I haven't looked at maths or Eco. Fuck legal. Only excited for English. Oh and learning whatever Romi choreographed over the holidays. Efficiency (Y)

Oh wait, excited for Wednesday and MEAT. Jesus, spending so much money and then there's Jess' yum cha birthday later omg bye money.

I had a dream about returning to school and Ms Motherwell.

Shut the fuck up.

Hello. I really cannot stand this blog format. I think it's why I avoid blogging now.

Thursday
Seriously so sick of finding clothes to wear everyday. How I miss uniform :(
Went back to Mojee yesterday and it killed my stomach for the rest of the day because it was so spicy. For me anyway. Bought pear ice block and Jina spent four dollars on a green tea ice cream, that noob.

Lesson was fun. We made banana beer. Now we can make furry poisonous alcohol. Idek what we learned yesterday, such a blur, all the information just blends together. Louise is so cute :')

Pointlessly went to Eastwood and got Sunny's dress which is too short for me :( But I'll resort to it if I find nothing this weekend. So unprepared for baulko.

Had a curry feast plus dessert last night and positively murdered my stomach.

Friday
So hot, died when I woke up today because upstairs is boiling and my room always happens to be the hottest. The taste of summer was nice though :) But holy it was so windy. I was so excited about my hair because it was finally a nice neat but big bun but as soon I stepped out of the car, the wind literally attacked and idek what it became.

Really hate the Western line. This presumably deaf guy went around holding a sign saying he was des and asking for money. Felt bad rejecting him. Seriously, everytime the train finally stops at strathfield, it's like coming to home and civilisation.

So indecisive about lunch, we walked around to so many different places before settling on another Korean one. I was paranoid about seats so I ran in the heat to put my bag down and then cause the left was too slow, I ran down eight flights of stairs. Ready to die. Had average udon and made it just in time for class (Y)

Steven didn't sit next to us today. Which sucked cause the lesson involved calculations which Anika and I know nothing about. And we smelt the fermented banana beer and it smelled like feet that walked on a banana. Sob I tried to get noggi in my break and after the lesson but there was always a line. So went to Penno and met Carla. Wow hadn't seen her in a long time.

Zumba was torture. So hot before starting. Then my whole family just had instant noodles for dinner and ice cream while watching Scooby Doo and the Addams Family. I love that show.

Haven't read for a few days. Reminding me that there were $7 penguins at the post office in strathfield! But michelle and I had no time to look.

Goodnight.

FIRST POST IN A WEEK. Which is unusual for me, but since I've been avoiding the computer and each day requires a great deal to say, I don't think my fingers can handle that QWERTY pad anymore. So long long loooong post whee.

Friday: LAST DAY OF YEAR 11.
Maths and we watched a documentary on maths which was unnecessarily dramatic but pretty interesting. Passed food around. I'll miss that class :(
Legal and of course we watched Forensic Investigators and I hope we don't watch it again because it is ruining my life. Every man that I see is a potential threat (ABBA reference). Didn't get results back either, sigh.
Not sure what happened in the free. I think it was just Tanya, Anika and I walking around. Actually we were on the oval netball courts first and then these Year 7s came so we left and I think we just prowled around the school and Tanya took her shoes and socks off TT Sneaked into the cottage. It was pretty nice. Sigh, nostalgia and it wasn't even a week ago.
Eco last was good! Took so many disgusting photos HEHEHEHE and had brownies and chips and gummi bears and other sources of fat/sugar/carbs and casually conversed with Hindmarsh and it was a good way to end the 'year'.

Pretty sure nothing happened on Saturday. Or Friday night.

SUNDAY: Social
It finally arrived and I still haven't decided whether it was anticlimactic or not.

Got up super early feeling super nervous and embarked on a ridiculous spring cleaning session with the family all fucking morning omg BUT I was finally able to see my floor and table :')
Anika arrived around 1pm after getting very lost and Carla a little while later and then we had so many servings of pasta salad and finally decided to start getting ready. So stressful. Room was a mess all over again. But we looked pretty good :)

Drove to Eric's and fuck those litas were fucking deadly because they hurt so much omg. And they didn't even hurt when I was walking in my yard for hours far out. Put hollywood tape on my thighs to keep the dress down. Instead, they just waxed off tiny rectangles. Hurt so much.

Rushed out of the house and train'd with Anika, Carla, Eric and Leanne and it was pretty fun except it was so hot and I was feeling so flustered. And some disgusting perverts that were probably 10 years old kept looking at us and going dayum. Disgusting.

Trekked from Town Hall to Cockle Bay and it was so painful and the downhill was so scary. Got a Starbucks and spent ages trying to fix the pain in my foot. Had four blisters and we hadn't even walked in LOOOL.

Everyone eventually arrived and looked amazing, except the guys were far too casual. Took lots of pictures and I had to be so wary of walking in the crowd because of my spikes. The venue was SO SMALL but I guess not that many people came anyway. And Good Time was playing first and I was so devastated.

Food was okay, but not nearly enough to satisfy. Started jamming and sweating and crying in my shoes and more photos and PHOTOBOOTH WAS SO FUN LOOOOL. Treasuring those slips of disgustingness. The colour group one we took was actually atrocious. Euro Guy was really hot.

Shoes eventually came off and I could dance better but the music was bad. Didn't know half the songs and it was all remixed into a mess idk. Danced in front of that beautiful fan. Anyway, a bunch of them left to go karaoke or something but enough stayed behind so it seemed to get more fun after that.

Fast forward. Went through awards and then we were basically kicked out half an hour before it was necessary. Tanya, bless her, gave me her vans which felt amazing, and I gained some arm muscle from carrying my shoes. Went to the Darling Harbour park and played on the condom swing and then had some Maccas yum. Trekked to Entertainment Centre to drop Christine off and then all the way up to Woollies where we crowded like a bunch of hooligans.

Train was fun, except I wish I slept. Finished a tub of ice cream and these white guys came up asking if we could Gangnam Style (which was fun earlier in the night). Then one of them whipped out his balls. It was disgusting, and so small, I swear they were not real. And then he mooned us.

Got to Eric's and claimed the bed. Just for memory, there was me, Anika, Carla, Jina, Leanne, Nayomi, Sylvia and Tanya. And Eric, Brandon, Philbert, Poon and Richard. Richard had to borrow my make up remover HAHA. Settled in and started playing Anika's super dirty truth or dare. I only remember I had to squeeze Sylvia's butt, and Richard humped the wall, Philbert licked Eric's belly button, everyone had to slap Tanya's ass, Carla lapdanced me, Poon and Richard kissed, Richard and Brandon mimicked a porno, and that was about it.

Idek but we stayed up till 3:30 till lights went out but holy, Sylvia started snoring and as a result, Carla, Brandon, Richard and I stayed awake till 5am. Well, Richard slept at 6am LOOL it was terrible. And then we had to wake up at 7am and omg, just, fuck. Fun though, snacked some more and did nothing and finally rushed out of the house around 8 for them to go Matrix.

Monday:
Such a relief to get home and have a shower. Bus'd and train'd to Strathfield and met everyone at Saigon Bowl and omg, I missed Matrix so much and Louise! She is so cute when she smiles. Of course, first lesson was a total mind fuck and I was ready to pass out from exhaustion with Anika and Jina. Got some well-deserved Noggi after that.

Tuesday:
This time, met everybody at a really nice Korean place, and I shared this plate of ramen, rice cake and fish cake with Christine and it was sooo nice. Met David too. Got a chatime lol I hate myself, spending so much money.

Second lesson was okay because after homework, my understanding just clicked. Mostly. So it was more enjoyable and yeah, three hours isn't horrible. Jina was drinking Pocari sweat and Louise was like D: and she's like POCARI IS AN ANIMAL, YOU'RE DRINKING ANIMAL SWEAT. But it was a joke and Anika fell for it of course. Then we told her about milk-us, which I've never heard of, and Calpis. So we bought her a Calpis in our break and she said something smart like, 'that's bull shit'. Like, cow-piss, and bull-shit...

Wednesday: TODAY
Omg this is so long.

Went to another Korean restaurant, after buying chatime and running for my train. The downer in front of me bought 10 chatimes... Anyway, by next Friday, I think we'll have gone to every single restaurant in Strathfield. Richard ate salad with chopsticks (Y)

Kind of mind fucked today, I can't remember things from the previous days. But I'm liking this course so I'll probably do it each holiday now. Considering Gamble is mentally incapable of adequately teaching this to us. But it's so exhausting. Came home and slept for three hours.

Hehe, social photos.

It's been a good week. Toodles.

Last day of Year 11.

It really irritates me when I just miss out posting on the proper day. As in, past midnight.


Pretty good day. So depressing though. Missed my bus again because I remembered about my English texts last minute so I had to pack those. Only returned advanced though, extension has to come tomorrow. I feel so sad parting with them. Now there's a hole on my bottom shelf and I don't want to move everything guh.

Maths first and I can do locus and parametrics! Just nothing else. And Marshall wore a semi-transparent white shirt and I could see his nipples and I thought I saw a nipple ring. Party tomorrow. Oh sorry. It's not a party, IT'S JUST A GET-TOGETHER. I miss Phineas and Ferb, fuck life. Foxtel :'(

Went to chem and considered boycotting the period as a class but thankfully, 11am came and it was the Year 12 farewell. So sunny and hot, I actually have a sock tan now. Right before social. Fuck. It was okay till they sang to 'Heaven' which was so upsetting. And then walking out, Marthury was sobbing and it was just so sad to see so everyone started crying and she created, as Carla put it, a 'road block'. Ditto with Shayna and my roll call buddies.

Got economics results and we're pretty pleased. Only results I'm proud of, and first to get over 80%. Carla had a tub of Nutella mm. And we took a group photo because it was Ms Cheng's last lesson which is sad too WHY WAS TODAY SO SAD? And seriously, we're technically in Year 12 right now because the grade above just officially graduated a couple hours ago.

English last, trying to tune out from Eldridge discussing next year's module while I stole Sylvia's Pride and Prejudice and reread the usual bits. Mr Darcy, I'm coming. Can't wait till Motherwell is back next term.


Bought a bracelet lol. Still need earrings and more bracelets ugh and idk what to do with hair and this whole affair is just so unprepared because social is in TWO DAYS. My litas aren't even broken in, and the spikes pose a serious hazard.

Just finished bs'ing my sports log. The actual hours are pretty accurate, just the dates are all false (Y)

Time to sleep. Last day of Year 11. Maths and eco parties tomorrow!

Best night.

Mm last week of Year 11.

Biggest fucking piece of mood shit idek maybe my period is finally deciding to come right before social fuck all just fucking fuck fuck shit fuck amoeba.

An unusually long time has passed since I blogged for my standards. Long post.

First day of school since a while. Or at least it feels like a while ago. Again, I will marvel at how our perception of time has completely fucked over.

GOOD DAY LIKE AMAZING DAY.

SIGH. Bored.

Omg dying. DYING.

Just got off the phone with Anika after attempting two economics questions and giving up. Fuck it's 11pm already WHY.

Post right before midnight.

ONE THOUSANDTH POST. Because I am in a good mood. Wow, blogging since Year 8, kudos to Elaine.

Lol 999th post. One thousandth one is going to be me literally sobbing like I just did. Cannot believe how fucking shit I am.

Third consecutive post lol procrastinating so fucking hard. But it was a semi good day.

On the bright side, I would die happily because the weather is beyond amazing.

Life. Is. Nothing.

Dying. I will be dead next week.

I cannot believe I am still failing extension, why is this so impossible? And I'm so tired, I think I'll just give up and sleep in half an hour.

Sob. Tried extension. Tried speech. Now that they've totally drained out my ability to write, I'm going to keep it up via blogging duh.

Dying but it needs to be said that my Othello essay is finished at last and sent off to poor Motherwell who has to suffer reading my disgusting language.

WAIT WAIT IT'S SPRING!

Sigh, half a paragraph of Othello calls for a break. I'm just praying that the very informal question allows informal language because mine sounds like a primary kid wrote it up.