Genevieve
You forget that we are in the native land of the hypocrite.
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Thursday, June 30, 2011
ennui
HOI. I'm quite happy right now because my mum said I can stay home tomorrow oho. Except that means I miss out on maths and English which is impromptus which I want to do but MEH, mufti totally throws me off.
Science first and we didn't get to finish Into the Womb :( Far out I despise biology, it's so mind fucking and sooo boring I'm actually going to fall asleep. It's reproduction now, which is semi-interesting, 'cause y'know, my mind is a whore.
Geography next and fark it was sooo boring WHY IS SCHOOL SO BORING. Watched this ridiculous debate on population and immigration and economy and I swear, politics benefits the nation in no way.
PE, finished Overcoming Adversity presentations.
The Great Debate was a Rather Great Disappointment. Definitely heaps better than last year and the curry guy was pretty hot 8) Yeah, they kinda switched the views on sexism, if that makes sense. Girls had to convince guys that we needed them during a zombie apocalypse. They sucked, it's bullshit that they won. Yeah it was just super boring so I started fishtail-braiding Sylvia's hair.
Train, tried to sleep on the bus but the faggot bus driver was a maniac and stopped so fast I banged my head on the window and woke up. Walked around a bit with Christine and bought KFC sigh. So unhealthy. Saw Pearl, and I swear, everybody's dead today. Pre-holiday syndrome; wildly similar to post-holiday syndrome.
Finally up to date with Pretty Little Liars and it's sooo freaky OMG, I need to stop watching it at midnight.
I frankly just want to read all holidays. I got some outings planned, but some are quite big so I have no idea how it's gonna work, especially the 10Q one, but I reeeeaaally wanna go. But in the end, I'll just ceebs because I'm lazy and love my house and it's entertainment too much.
HAHA poor Sylvia. I will cry my eyes out because I love Sylvia and her cuteness and her laugh and her innocence and her pureness. She balances out us crazy 10Q bitches. Yes, I will cry my eyes into oblivion. Which means extinction in this case. Because I'm Asian. They're already small.
But beauty, real beauty, ends where an intellectual expression begins.
Intellect is in itself a mode of exaggeration, and destroys the harmony of any face.
5:43 PM
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
What the hell, you are just so fucking irritating. Fucking hypocrite. You're the definition of hypocrite, you sore bitch.
8:44 PM
There goes the Devil's bargain
It's suddenly getting cold again. Fuck I'm going to die in China in January, omguacmole WHY DID I AGREE TO GO? Caught early train and we stayed on it at Hornsby for a while, and random dudes kept sitting next to me and there was a piece of lettuce on the ground and Christine wanted to eat it. LOL 'I know a guy named Luke'. 'Leaf?'
English and we did impromptus and far out, the sub is fucking annoying, fucking waffling on about how to present them for 15 minutes. WE FUCKING KNOW BITCH. The subjects were really stupid though, last year was so much cooler when Mr Hatton wrote down like, 100+ topics and let us choose between three random ones. I love Mr Hatton.
Oh I just dozed for a couple minutes.
Alright commerce second and it was pretty funny. It's usually funny :) LOL SHRUB HAHAHA. Me and Anika were getting paranoid over each other stealing the wizard hat.
History was sooo boring omguacamole. Got exams back and I did good, but I'm not even taking history anymore so it's such a waste. I don't know, is writing for history analytical? I can't write for English, I'm so hopeless.
The Great Feast was a Great Disappointment. LOL all the sausages were burnt but they played Chamber of Secrets, which was seriously the scariest one for me.
LOL then me, Anika, Jess and Tanya jigged SAIL. We just walked out to Thomas St but then they started running and OMG Anika that paranoid hoe. Actually we were all quite scared of police and station guards so we walked around Waitara for like, half an hour and went to Eric's house LOL. Then we finally decided to go pee at Waitara and found Eric there as well, and Anika thought this curry dude speaking curry on the phone was a guard talking to our school HAHA. Yeah then we went to Hornsby and I was so scared when I saw police at the station but we got past and bought Boost and finally school ended. Played scatter-gory at Penno and then me and Carla walked around Towers and shared a pide nomnom.
Sigh, I'd exercise but I showered this morning and I can't wash my hair twice but GUH I feel so fat but it's not late yet and I have nothing to do, so I might zumba actually. Sigh. I want to talk to you, so, so, so much I want to scream.
Day 6 - Talk about a recent experience that has affected you greatly and how
Sigh, this topic comes up so often for me. Everyone knows who I like, except him, of course, and I wish I didn't talk to him. Far out it's so awkward and we barely talk now. These stupid feelings transform me into a different person sometimes, when I find out something I don't want to hear, and it's so foreign to me, because it hasn't happened for years. It worsens my over-analyzing and female neurotic-ism, which couldn't possibly have gotten worse until this. Yes, it sucks. I hope it dies down soon. BUT WHY DON'T YOU FUCKING TALK TO ME?
5:50 PM
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Masochism
Why do I put myself through this?
10:30 PM
IN THE WOMB
SIGH my cramps are killing me. It's like a stabbing in my crotch. WHAT A GAY DAY. Oh yes, my interest for Taylor was reignited this morning 8) He's sooo gentlemanly and pretty tank, even though he's small, therefore stocky/compact but WHATEVER he's pretty good looking.
Oh which reminds me, I was watching the Abduction trailer last night, and frankly it looks shit and Taylor Lautner doesn't stop glaring but holy shit when I saw him and Lily Collins making out, I found my reason to watch the film. I'm such a pervert LOLOL. She's playing Clary Fray by the way.
Science first and Ms Smyth was away so we watched this super long documentary about babies developing and it was sooo boring so I slept and I only wanted to see the giving birth part, NOT BECAUSE I'M A PERVERT, but to see if that pain would be worth it. Babies appear as little aliens.
English next with another sub and it was boring, going over those text analysis' and we learned a bit about the context of the Book Thief. Sigh, wish we learned about WWII last year in Elective History.
Commerce was guh, Hindmarsh showed us his Facebook pictures of his daughter and he looked so funny LOL. She has brown hair, but his red face. And his blue eyes which are really nice.
Maths was LOLOLOL. I nearly pissed/bloodied my pants from laughing at Christine's fail 'COME AT ME BRUH' move. It was more like, 'I'M COMIN' AT YOU BRUH'. Ohhh sigh, too funny. Oh and I hate probability. I can't wait till we do Trig.
Bus was fun, after the panic of Brandon missing it was over, noob. Played scattegories! Only a few rounds but it was fun, just like last year HAHA. Then we all went to the library, after I bought a yummy gozleme and Carla and Michelle got instant noodles. Got no work done of course, but I did go through some newspapers and I officially have to stick with carbon tax. OMG my speech is going to be so boring and I can't stand knowing people are going to be bored listening to me. Self-esteem plunge. Yeah then it got awks and I was in sooo much pain OMG.
Sigh, I wanna jig SAIL tomorrow but Anika that homo isn't going to. TANYA AND JESS, JIG WITH MEEEEE.
YUM waterrrmelon.
LOL honestly, this is a bit embarrassing, but 'Every Part of Me' by Miley Cyrus. I think this was during HM season 3, where things were kind of changing for her, and I suppose that's basically my whole high school life, but it's been applying to me more now. Just that I never feel myself, or I don't know who I am, or what I'm supposed to be, if I'll ever be the same person, or if I've completely moved on from who I used to be.
There are only two kinds of people who are really fascinating - people who know absolutely everything, and people who know absolutely nothing.
7:42 PM
Monday, June 27, 2011
Spoiled Horror
Life is so gloomy. I got my period. Fuck my life. Early bus was later than usual bus, which was gay. Waited what seemed like aaaages for the lovebirds to finish their canoodling.
Food tech first and twas so boring. Ew me and Christine died when we looked up the Guinea worm, far out it was disgusting. I can't wait till food equity is finished.
Oh my guacamole, effing Millennium. Died on the stupid exercise bikes and I couldn't stop bouncing so my vagina/ass is going to be a big bruise tomorrow. As well as my poor legs. It's horribly walking on the way back to school because you're sweating but it's super cold out and I end up getting sick.
Science is sooo exhausting and we spent another entire lesson on just answering one question. I'm going to do sooo bad for biology this year. I'm thinking I'll do Physics instead of Society and Culture, and drop it in Year 12 because I cannot do two sciences for HSC.
Maths, had a data test which thankfully wasn't too bad but it was pretty bad. OH YES. Puzzy came back :D God I was like, mindblown when I saw her, which is weird because she hasn't changed at all. And she game me an elephant :) It's the third elephant I've gotten this/last year, from Anika and Jina too.
Slept on the bus, but OMG MICHELLE YOUR LAUGH IS SO ASDFGHJKL. I was gonna stay library but I had no work there so I got home and had some disgusting butter chicken takeout my stepsister got free from her friend or whatever and it was sooo tomato-ey and not Indian at all.
I feel as if I age more than a day, each day.
Far out my skype isn't working. Hum, I really like Oscar Wilde's strange theories and philosophies. In fact, I've been quoting them at the end of the previous couple posts. Not that I recommend you put them into action.
Sigh I have a bit of work to do actually. I'm debating whether I should go to China or not. I don't think I'll even go out for my birthday if I were here anyway so yeah, odds are leaning towards going, but FUCK I miss first week of school. I can't miss Year 11 TT
Alright I'll get this English done.
I hate these questions. You either sound stupid or too wise for your own good. I guess for me, it'd be putting the other person's importance above your own, which is so fucking cliche, my heart is in pain from saying that. I think being in love should be purely intellectual. It'd start out as a shallow affection, but over time, there should be a connection on a mental level that you wouldn't have with anybody else. It's an understanding of the minds. That's what I'd want.
The true mystery of the world is the visible, not the invisible.
5:49 PM
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Pleasure is Nature's test.
Hoi. HOI. Today was arright. Woke up around 10 and my mum was making coconut macaroons nomnom and I had toast with like, a pool of nutella and it was so delicious but I felt sick after. Then at noon, we were about to leave for Hornsby Westfield but the car died, so we were delayed about an hour. Sigh there was nothing to buy BUT I bought these $10 Mavi denim shorts OHO! I thought I was blind when I saw the sale price. Sadly, that's all I bought and then I binged on Hungry Jack's so I'm gonna have to go exercise vigorously after this.
It's so weird seeing white people speak perfect Chinese.
I started playing piano again last night and I'm determined to perfect my favourite old pieces, especially Yiruma and Mozart because they took me sooo effing long to learn, and it's depressing forgetting it all.
Last zumba lesson tomorrow, which sucks because it's so fun watching others do it. And FUCK Carla reminded me we have a data test tomorrow and I'm sooo screwed because my calculator is dying on me.
Boy A broke up with Boy B.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Sigh, home and school. Frankly, I didn't think I'd get into a selective school so I would've been attending the whorehouse of CHHS, which would've been pretty fun since my old friends party sooo much. I never leave my house anymore, I swear. It's too cold and I'm too lazy. Unless I get to go shopping or something but otherwise I'm a hermit. Oh yes, I went to the library like, three times a week before exams and LOL almost everyday when Carla first got the cafe. Nah I like being at home. I'd be content with never having to move out and living on my own. I'm too dependent on my mum.
Experience was of no ethical value. It was merely the name men gave to their mistakes.
5:47 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2011
humanity takes itself too seriously
Well Christine is going to blog so I will too. Such a useless day today. Got my retainer and omguacamole it makes me want braces back. I swear I have the crappest dentist, far out. Huh I was reading alllll morning and then alllll afternoon until I fell asleep on my book.
Zumba'd today :D It's an awesome feeling, since I've been getting so fat which is why I despise winter. Now I'm watching Transformers but it's too boring to pay attention to.
Sigh, the internet is just so depressing. There's nothing to do. Nothing that brings satisfaction anyway. I mean, social networking is just stupid now. Like Facebook is sooo stupid I can't believe I used to be obsessed with it. Tumblr is boring now and heaps of people I used to like/be friends with deleted theirs.
Fark my mouth feels irritating and it's making me talk funny.
Oh I was listening to this dramatic reading of a break-up letter and it was so funny I was just LOLing my ass off :)
Day 2 - Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be? What made you change?
I'm Genevieve Wang and I'm a selfish, mean headcase who is occasionally friendly to selective people. I don't know if it's changed much, probably just progressed to a more intense level. I used to be happier, but I always felt alone and had nobody to rely on, and it doesn't seem like that'll ever change. I guess life makes people change. People make people change. You change as you mature and experience more things. Majority of them are unpleasant and leave an impact on you, but like the cliche which I feel ashamed to write, they shape you.
The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it.
10:58 PM
Friday, June 24, 2011
deep thought
Day 1 - What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours.
Today, was generally not too bad, because lots of it was spent with friends and after school was quite fun. The last few hours obviously at home with my family, except I didn't eat dinner with them, I'm on effing tumblr and I'm watching Harry Potter. No, I would be extremely disappointed, yet I still can't be bothered to change myself. It's depressing that we only realise exactly what we have just as we're about to lose it.
8:37 PM
challenge
YAY look what I found! I shall start today.
Deep Thoughts 30 Day Challenge
1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?
2. Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?
3. Where have you been spending your time lately? Three/Five/Ten years ago would you have expected to be there?
4. What do you think it means to be in love?
5. Pick a song that projects the same mood as your day or week and explain.
6. Talk about a recent experience that has effected you greatly and how.
7. Think of the last person you hugged. What would you do if they vanished completely?
8. Write about the first moment that comes to your head when you read the words “childhood memory”
9. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
10. Did you have a good day or a bad day? Where do you think that defining line was?
11. Do you feel protective over someone?
12. If you could trade places with anyone for one week, who would it be and why?
13. Where do you see your best friend in 10 years?
14. When you are stressed, what can you use as an outlet? Why do you think it helps you?
15. What do you believe in? And not just God or atheism.
16. What are you passionate about?
17. Who was the last person you kissed? (If you are still with them now, pick the person before them.) What would they say if they saw you now?
18. Talk about your extended family. Why do you think they are the way they are?
19. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?
20. Again, pick a song that projects the mood of your week or day.
21. Look back. Why did you choose this challenge? Do you think it says anything about you?
22. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.
23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.
24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?
25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?
26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?
27. Is there a friend you are worried about? Why do they have you concerned? Do you think they’ll be okay?
28. Would you rather someone tell you the truth up front but gently, or be lied to to spare your feelings?
29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?
30. Look back on this last month and talk about it
8:36 PM
true to your heart
Guh mufti today. Sigh my scarf was shedding on my jeans. My feet died in those shoes, but it was the first time in them so it had to happen. LOL I swear my horoscope applies to them.
It's your turn to lead the dance. All eyes are on you, and you're pulling things together out of your imagination. Today you'll be extremely attuned to your own style. You're moving and flowing, and you're doing it so smoothly, with such ease, that no one could possibly know how carefully you ochestrated those moves. Keep on dancing. You can rest later. For now, keep your energy up and your eyes open.
LOL it's so weird.
Anyway super early train today and met up with heaps of people and I was so happy that Eric and Ricky were a teeny bit taller than me, but then I realised these shoes were only 3-inch and average is 4 so :/
PE first and fucking Lang is a fucking cow, made us fucking take our fucking sports uniform and we didn't even fucking use it.
Geography was just guh and we had that annoying sub we always get for commerce but we just watched a video.
Maths was LOL because we had Farquard who gave us some lovely questions.
Science was quite fun because we made sour-strap-jelly-beans DNA and found out some interesting shit.
After school was eh. Bought quite a bit of food and looked through the booklets Brandon and Eric got from that career expo, lucky bitches. I really want to go. It basically just stressed me out more than yesterday's career lesson. M60 home and god the ride took so long.
Alright. I cannot believe I ever liked somebody like you, you whore. You're a nasty, tacky, two-faced bitch. You probably don't even realise the majority of your so-called friends cannot stand you. You think you're so powerful but all you have is words, and you've abused that so much that no one gives a flying fuck. Have a nice hopeless life.
Ew. I wish you were more attractive. Or cooperative. Either will do.
Huh, I finished the challenge, but I need to find some more because normal blogging is super boring.
5:42 PM
Thursday, June 23, 2011
abominable twat
Sigh. That sums up today I reckon.
Careers first and I was actually really bored, and basically thinking how much Dr. Turner reminded me of Forrest Gump/Tom Hanks LOL. Yeah it just causes extra unnecessary and unwanted stress and worry for what I'm going to do. But I suppose it's preferable to religion.
Then we made quite a yummy Egyptian bean soup which sounds pretty gross but me and Carla's wasn't too spicy, peppery though so it was alright. And we tried a macaroon but I don't think mine was cooked enough or overcooked :/
Science and SIGH we had a fail quiz HAHA. 3 out of 9 marks so far, and it's only been two questions, which somehow took up the entire lesson.
LOL LUNCH. We went to that bridge thing and it was so stressful but our bridge was pree cool, with straws and sterrrrrf.
PE last and fuck I despise Lang, stupid bitch and we have to fucking do sport tomorrow DWCJVHDSLJAHDF JUST LET ME PUNCH YOUR FACE BITCH. And Anika won't jig first period w/ me tomorrow. Soigh.
Ran for M60 and made it for the first time in weeks. Went to Towers and it's depressingly deprived of nice stuff. I left for my mum and we walked around everywhere for sooo long and I bought two things and my feet ache >> I don't know how I'll walk in those shoes tomorrow at this rate. ALSO my outfit looks hobo-like. I will never ever be happy with mufti and FARK we have it next week too omguacamole. It's so stressful.
Guh haven't done any maths hw either. Sooo not looking forward to tomorrow.
Honestly, mum, but I don't want to burden you with anymore than my mental self and that dysfunctional family and your work and chores. I'm also afraid of what you might think of or say to me.
10:07 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
dead
Sigh today was awful. OMG I woke up at 6:55, didn't have time for breakfast. I need my breakfast. It was super cold today. Yum bought another pork roll for today. I swear that place got really popular all of a sudden, like I'm seeing everybody at our school with pork rolls.
Had commerce first and we had to draw those stupid cartoons and we had that annoying sub and hopefully we get Hindmarsh back soon.
Sigh then we went to see The Seagull and we were just checking out the guys from King's, who were unfortunately very disappointing. I mean after Normanhurst, I didn't think that'd be the case. Seats were sooo uncomfortable, I couldn't stop moving and fidgeting. I don't really have an opinion on the play either. There was no purpose, except it was a bit like Hamlet. Anyway, I think I'd rather have gone to school.
Went to Westfield after and LOL we raided those free coupon things. Bought another sundae from Maccas, sigh. I'm such a money waster. Then we looked around for dresses and fark, JESS WHERE THE MOTHER FARK IS YOUR STOMACH HUH? Yeah traffic was heaps bad and LOL the dude sitting in front of us was this weird dude we've seen at penno before, who has this weird thing where he keeps hitting his ipod to these weird rhythms and LOL he like, was doing it and then he broke away from his rhythm and pointed backwards to replace it? IONO it was funny. Then we were so shocked when he took out a drumstick. Not food, like an actual stick to hit drums.
Anyway, I've been reading more Shakespeare because I ceebs to work so BYE.
Everybody in it.
8:59 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
suxy
OMG watched Pretty Little Liars till midnight last night and I was sooo freaked out, like holy guacamole. OH, HOLY GUACAMOLE (Y)
English first and sigh, we had Gregory again but does not matter because we had an awesome english lesson, except Jina ditched us. Talked about parties and horny stuff and people. LOL it was Medieval Day and the Year 8's costumes were like BAM. So much freaking effort, further emphasizing the lack of enthusiasm in our grade.
Maths was just guh, we started probability and fark we have a test for data OMG.
Commerce wasn't too bad, but before the lesson, me and Anika went to the toilets and then we got back to the classroom and then I realised I left my bad down in the toilets >> So I had to run back down and run up. Yep, I've completed my exercise for the day.
History last and had a sub but LOL such a fun lesson. Anika google imaged 'hot indian men' and we were just looking around the first page but then OMG I noticed this picture of a man and he was sitting with his legs spread WAAAY apart and we saw his penis/balls and HOLY SHIT IT WAS SO SMALL AND HIS BALLS WERE WHITE. And then Jina google imaged 'special fried rice disease' and apparently it was a penis that looked like a sausage-jam-roll-with-flakes. Then we were going through Audrey's blog, seeing how many times she wrote 'My boyfriend ;D' or 'Eric ;L' for her challenge answers. OUR DEDICATIONS BRUH! DO NOT FORGET.
Then me and Carla and Tanya stayed at Towers and far out, Tanya took like, an HOUR to shovel down her gozleme which was super yummy and we got McFlurry's which had no Oreo in them. Ended up doing no work, surprise surprise, and just talked about our sad lives.
Now I'm waiting for more Pretty Little Liars to load and I'm so glad our only lesson tomorrow is commerce. BOI GUISE, while I go shit my pants.
Eddy. Man, you're so sociable and easy to converse with, so you made me feel really comfortable. Also, thanks for explaining senior years for me (Y)
6:21 PM
Monday, June 20, 2011
as you like it
Sigh it was a tiring day today. Bought an orgasmically good breakfast muffin nomnom. NOBODY NOTICED MY BRACE-LESS MOUTH. I had to shove my smile into their faces. We had Shakespeare finals first period and it was pretty boring but Lisha and Ann Wen won. 10Q (Y) Then zumba, OMGGGGG. So gay, the instructor kept changing the move as soon as we got the hang of it and it was sooo hot but then she turned all the fans on and it got cold and my limbs stiffened. Sigh only one more Millennium lesson and then it's footsal or some shit. Half slept in science because I was so exhausted from gym. The room smelt like burning gas, because we were finishing that clay shit. Guh evolution is pissing me off. The more I learn about it, the less I believe it. Maths last and it was so darn boring but I just finished my HW so I'm free to waste my time.
No one's on skype, which is strange since it's pretty much time for everyone to sign on. SIGH I DETEST MUFTI I HAVE FARKING NOTHING TO WEAR OMG. I'm still trying to wear in these shoes but I'm having doubts about wearing them. What if I have to RUN for transport? That'll be a nightmare. Also, I'll be super tall, like 174cm.
OH I'LL WATCH PRETTY LITTLE LIARS TONIGHT! Except I'll probably shit my pants from all the intensity.
Sigh, me and Carla were having a sad discussion about how sad the sad formal will be. Like seriously, if nothing interesting happens, I'm ditching and we can just find a park or some shit and ruin our dresses (Y)
Also, LOL EW GROSS OMG WHAT EVEN.
Alright off to watch PLL.
Probably Eric, made him promise to come to the library like, a month ago so it wouldn't be awks with just me, Carla, Richard and Brandon LOL. Thank you for fulfilling it.
5:45 PM
Sunday, June 19, 2011
phwoar
I'm watching Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging again. Sigh today was such a useless day. Slept at freaking 4am and ANIKA I restarted Pretty Little Liars! Got up to episode 10 and holy shit I was so freaked out, because it was midnight.
Had mi goreng for brunch but I got freaked out because Ricky said it was basically eating wax and a dude died from eating too much instant noodles and there was wax all over his stomach. Then I finally finished The Book Thief. I think half the book took me like, four hours, one hour I fell asleep on the book. I guess I changed my mind about the book, it gets good.
Sigh I did the wrong exercise for maths but I ceebs to do the proper one now. Huh, maybe I'll rewrite my changing adversity speech.
Nobody, because frankly, teenage life drama crisis is humorously exasperating, which is basically all we're going through. Happy people are the most uncommon things you find now.
8:30 PM
Saturday, June 18, 2011
tune as old as song
Are you completely over your past relationships?
LOL
Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
Yes :(
Do you think you've changed over the past year?
Mm I suppose yes
Are you currently looking forward to anything?
Tonight
Where is your number one?
At home, whoever they are
What hoodie did you wear last?
Wow I haven't worn one in ages, so no idea
Are you ticklish?
LOL duh
Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?
I stopped fitting into my mum's clothes years ago TT
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
That'd be very nice but no
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
By 5 days HAHA
Will this weekend be a good one?
I don't like weekends anymore, but I hope so
Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it?
I want one (Y)
Do you like your life as of now?
This is post-shopping/buying happiness. It'll eventually fade.
Are you mad at anyone? Who?
I'm always mad at someone. They should know who they are.
Are you okay?
In the general sense yes
Has anyone ever told you they want to be with you forever?
TT
Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
Some men seem like very simple creatures
Are there certain things that can't be joked about with you?
Not certain things really, it'll depend on the timing and current situation
Is your hair longer than your shoulders?
Yes
What would you say if your ex called you and told you that he/she loved you?
LOL
Buy anything lately?
YUS TODAY
Have you realized anything lately?
Have you realized anything lately?
Yes, lots of issues I have with people and myself
Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
I don't want to look even more disgusting
Do you know how to use chopsticks?
HAHA I'm pretty fail but I manage
Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
Uhm probably my hairdresser
Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
Do you know how to use chopsticks?
HAHA I'm pretty fail but I manage
Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
Uhm probably my hairdresser
Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
What idiot wants their tongue pierced?
Do you dream in black and white?
Do you dream in black and white?
Usually
How are you?
Meh (Y)
Are you named after one of your parents or grandparents?
LOL no
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yes please
Do you usually tell people when you're mad at them?
Sometimes, you should know if I'm pissed at you anyway
Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
ASDFGHJKL
Do you miss anyone?
Yes
What is stressing you out most right now?
Academics, relationships
Are you waiting for a phone call?
No
Was there anyone who 'made your day'?
Yes
Do you even believe in love?
It's kind of a stupid question, I don't think you 'believe' in love.
Did you talk to anyone you didn't like today?
No
Are you a very stressed out person?
I'm an adolescent girl
Are you single?
Sigh yes
Are you afraid of the dark?
Used to and still am in certain circumstances
Would you pay someone to kill the last person who hurt you most?
Ask me when I'm angry
How are you?
Meh (Y)
Are you named after one of your parents or grandparents?
LOL no
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yes please
Do you usually tell people when you're mad at them?
Sometimes, you should know if I'm pissed at you anyway
Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
ASDFGHJKL
Do you miss anyone?
Yes
What is stressing you out most right now?
Academics, relationships
Are you waiting for a phone call?
No
Was there anyone who 'made your day'?
Yes
Do you even believe in love?
It's kind of a stupid question, I don't think you 'believe' in love.
Did you talk to anyone you didn't like today?
No
Are you a very stressed out person?
I'm an adolescent girl
Are you single?
Sigh yes
Are you afraid of the dark?
Used to and still am in certain circumstances
Would you pay someone to kill the last person who hurt you most?
5:59 PM
just a little change
OHOOO braces off! The cleaning hurt like fucking shit though and my teeth feel like snails >> So slimy and I kinda miss my braces. Then we went to Parramatta and my first meal without braces was a bacon deluxe at Hungry Jack's and it was so heavenly, I was having a burgasm. I think I was sort of pretending to be Marshall LOL.
Then we just walked around Parramatta and I only got 2 pieces TT A red scarf and these black ankle wedges which I need to wear in so I might wear them on Friday. Sigh, I tried on so many knits and everything and they all looked sooo weird, it was exhausting not buying anything.
I forgot to mention on the T62 yesterday, there were these four American girls and their accents were so interesting (Y)
I actually slept early last night. 1am LOL.
Yeah I found Jess did another question thing so I shall probably do that. Beauty and the Beast is on 8D
Oh yes, you. Fuck you. You're annoying.
That's basically all my friends, with different situations. Sigh alright last year's dance. Everybody there, especially Carla, Eric and Aidan. It was an amazing night, good and bad memories. I'd like to relive it still.
5:50 PM
Friday, June 17, 2011
I have no one.
Hello, this is such a depressing Friday night.
Class was so empty and un-10Q-like with the VA people gone. It's so nice to finally be able to enjoy english with Ms Motherwell and I don't mind this choice unit. It could teach us all some stuff, or reinforce things. Maths is just guh, but Praba brought lollies and chocolate :) History was a bludge since Eakins was marking our exams so we were like, smelling various contents of a pencil case LOL. Geography last was quite fun. The zucchini and little red man story (Y) LOL CHRISTINE YOU FORGOT SOMETHING.
Holy it was so cold today, I was so angry.
Fuck my life.
LOL Christine? Carla? No Christine was after the party. LOL HEY WHAT UP. Technically, it's your fault for leaning in. I wasn't kidding when I said I'd kiss you. Guess you found that out the hard way. SKYPE TONIGHT.
7:08 PM
Thursday, June 16, 2011
box fox mox tox
It was a horrible day today. Went to library this morning to print my PE shit, virtual emphasis on the SHIT.
Science first and I actually cannot stand listening to the bullshit of evolution. It's just as far-fetched like God creating the entire universe. For me anyway, so I will just tune out and fail my yearlies.
Geography next and we got our results which weren't tooooo bad, but I finally beat Christine :)
PE was just LOL. Still beat Christine (Y) 4-2. Listened to presentations and they were good, so I'm glad I didn't do it today. They were so depressing though, mine's supposed to be happy! I have to modify the speech totally.
Food tech and we FINALLY stopped food equity! Made macaroon, shell things? Me and Carla made a yummy lemon one which looked like seeded mustard and the piping bag was like, sweating out the mixture onto my hands.
LOL ran for 19, because people had to pee and goodness, we're so unfit. Then I had to M60 to Parramatta and far out, it took like a fucking hour. My hair only took about half though and I dislike it. Of course, I've never been happy with a haircut. If my friends ever take that profession, I'll never allow them to cut my hair. I'll hate them forever.
Sigh, I have like, 3 exercises of maths that I ceebs to do.
Huh, I don't think anybody needs a second chance from me. Or if they did, I wouldn't want to give them one because I happen to enjoy holding grudges. There's my neurotic mind for you.
7:59 PM
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Surfing would be an amazing feeling.
11:19 PM
it's like a banana; squishy
Sigh this cold and wind is making my hair stringy or some shit but it's hideous. Me, Audrey and Christine each got a pork roll, or Audrey got some chicken but it was really yummy. Christine cried from the chillis I think, LOL.
English first and MS MOTHERWELL CAME BACK OMG. I swear I've never been happier to see her. Fuck though, we got Eliot back and it was sooooo bad, I wanted to die laughing.
Commerce. Sigh me and Anika are so indecisive HAHA because we wanted to jig SAIL last period but then we started overthinking everything and eventually chickened out LOL.
History was sooooooooooooooooooooo boring. I need to sleep earlier. Ms Eakins only just started marking out exams, sigh. I really want history back and I never ever EVER want to see my geo result. Yeah me Tanya and Anika decided not to jig/RUN.
Then beginning of SAIL, we were about to go again but then we had no idea where to exit so we just ceebs and Tanya was like WALK OUT OF SAIL NOOBS. Seriously TT But the lesson wasn't too bad so meh.
I must finish PE before I fall on my face because I am so so so sleepy and hungry but my mum's lasagna will take like another hour BUT I'M SO HUNGRY OMGUACAMOLE.
Wow uhm, that's everybody. Alright HEY ERIC! Yeah I thought you were a stoner. We all did. Literally. Thankfully you're not, you're a wonderful woman (Y) I'm pretty sure YOU judged me differently too, as a lot of people seem to have. Thanks for always being there. You know I only joke around with you so please don't ever be offended. Invite us over again. Your bed's feeling a little lonely.
4:27 PM
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
I think I'm almost done with PE. Probably not. Anyway I'm in a good mood because I finally talked to Aidan :D But then he brb'd me for like, ages so eh.
Sigh, gotta finish this shit.
11:14 PM
I say A
Terrible day today.
Science first and the smell of the bunsen burners was GUH and I am incredibly uninterested, thus bad, at biology.
English next and OMG we got Shakespeare results back, and me and Christine and Audrey all got the same overall mark, which I thought was kind of shit LOL. Meh, it's a lot better than my expectation, but fuck our fucking sub.
I love our commerce group! Mr Hindmarsh' wife is due on Monday. Baby Hindmarsh (Y)
Hum. Lunch.
Maths last and I despise data. I DESPISE DATA. I despise this year really.
Library after school without Brandon. It was boring and I only copied maths theory.
Sigh I'm trying to do PE. I know everything, I just have no idea how to present all this shit OMG. And I'm so scared of getting PE back, I swear I did super shit for it. I ceebs to elaborate on my day but it sucked.
Probably the one time I told someone I liked them, but in the end, I'm not sure I did, since the friendship was still easy and comfortable as before. It still hurt at the time, but we were able to joke about it so that was good.
7:55 PM
Monday, June 13, 2011
fuck
I saw this shit on tumblr and I could never agree more.
Teenagers are the most misunderstood people on the planet. They're treated like children, and expected to act like adults.
10:39 PM
beer-flavoured nipples
I estimate I'll definitely be posting once more after this because I am so flipping bored and I still ceebs to work.
Wow I just realised, this is the second long weekend that I've missed out an extra day. Like, the first time this year was the Friday after injections and I didn't go school from Friday to Monday, and same for this weekend :) Except it makes me feel so out of it when I return.
I've been researching Nazi Germany because the Book Thief really further piqued my interest for WWII. Except now I feel pretty sick reading about the Holocaust and everything.
WHY AM I NOT DOING WORK? Fuck exams, fucking killed my sleep and actual working patterns. Intense studying that we all had to do deserves a fucking longer break but NO we fucking get two assignments already due and FAR OUT let's not get into that fucking english piece of shit.
I'm in a bad mood so I will go and take it out on food. I hope sushi isn't loaded with calories.
5:05 PM
unbelievable sights
Oh my god my eyes are in pain, fucking slept at 4 LOL. Then obviously, woke up at noon and I'm so grateful for the Queen's fake birthday.
HAHA I had a dream Audrey came up to me and was like, I JUST HAD SEX and I was like holy fuck .
Sigh, I haven't done any work. All weekend. Not one word. I'M SO HOPELESS. I've been reading the Book Thief for a few hours each day and it's seriously boring, like my eyes start to glaze over.
You know, lots of people seem to have a phrase that they live by and I've been thinking about what I live by, and all I've got is, don't rely on others. They'll only disappoint you one way or another. Pretty depressing, but happy ones are pretty bullshit.
Sigh, you mean my life? Alright, currently, you. What I'm feeling, I do not know. It's probably shallow, I hope it is. But it probably makes things a bit harder right now. It's like I don't even exist to you. How can I possibly want someone like that? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
1:51 PM
Sunday, June 12, 2011
ain't no mountain high enough
LOL I'm listening to Sister Act songs on repeat HAHA, even though I'm not religious, they make me happy and I can sing them (Y)
Yeah thanks Carla, for singing I Will Follow Him in maths.
11:26 PM
thanks carla
Hi, my name is: Genevieve
Never in my life have I been: talented
The one person who can drive me nuts is: my sister
High school: is going to be the epitome of my life when I leave it
When I'm nervous: my heart drums
The last song I listened to was: my TV
If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: Carla LOL. We're wedding partners.
My hair is: only nice-looking at night
When I was 5: I had short hair
Last Christmas: was horrible
I should be: working
When I look down I see: legs in sweatpants
The happiest recent event was: what happiness? My life is tragic.
If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be: Definitely Rachel, mainly because of fashion. But I'd probably suit Monica in terms of neurotic-ism and I love Chandler.
By this time next year: looking forward to 2012 HAHA Ricky
My current gripe is: LOL I googled this. It's annoyance and it's probably a tie between several people and myself
I have a hard time understanding: others
There's this girl I know that: I'd like to see suffer right now
You know I like you when: I either stay silent or probably try too hard
The last drink I had was: some citrus tea which is quite delicious
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: my mother
Take my advice: People say it's good (Y)
The thing I want to buy: FUCKING CLOTHES I'M SO DEPRIVED OF NEW CLOTHES
If you visited the place I was born: you'd find kangaroos
I plan to visit: America if I can afford it
If you spent the night at my house: don't make noises when you sleep, or I'll come at you
I'd stop my wedding if: my dress was ruined
The world could do without: ego and pride
I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: lick the belly of a snail
Most recent thing I've bought myself: sigh, food
Most recent thing someone else bought me: LOL FOOD
My favorite blonde is: I don't think I liked any of the blonde chicks at primary
My favorite brunette is: Katie or Natalie, but that was years ago
My favorite black hair is: the rest of my friends LOL
Last thing I ate was: my mum bought takeaway asian food :)
My middle name is: Yu Yan
In the morning I: want to die
The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: horses or dolphins!
Once, at a bar: I almost slept from boredom
Last night I was: watching TV
There's this guy I know who: doesn't realise my existence or feelings
If I was an animal I'd be: a French dog (Y)
A better name for me would be: Genevieve
Tomorrow I am: going to further waste away my life
Tonight I am: going to ruin my eyes
My birthday is: a date no one cares to remember
I'm thinking about: how to answer this question
7:32 PM
she's a mutant
ALRIGHT HI GUYS.
I'm in a surprisingly good mood, considering I've been a useless lump of girl all weekend, and possibly for the rest of my life, but I was watching TVD season 2 and OMG ANIKA I MISS IT SO MUCH D: Too much drama in the show rn, it's killing me. It's almost September, IT'S ALMOST SEPTEMBER.
Yeah got woken up sooo early and called Christine for a bit and then read the Book Thief. I dunno, it's not a very appealing book. Like, there's no purpose in it, in my opinion.
Then my computer fucking froze twice in the middle of an episode so I'm watching 10 Things I Hate About You and planning to do a note thing I found on Carla's blog. I miss doing those, it's like the Facebook notes. Surprisingly entertaining.
Day 18 - The person that you wish you could be
Appearance-wise, Blake Lively. She's divine and looks flawless all the time. I can properly decide when I'm older. I want to be the person that is wanted by the person I'm going to want. If that makes sense.
7:26 PM
Saturday, June 11, 2011
stupid is as stupid does
HOI.
Yes, so last night, Ricky fell asleep on me. How ungentlemanly. Then I woke up at like, before 9 which was way too early and my nose skin hurts SO fucking much from rubbing tissues on it.
Then I wasted my morning reading Breaking Dawn, and I remembered how much I enjoy the story. Sigh, the movie is just SIGH. No more ladies. Then I watched Funny Face and then I watched Forrest Gump.
It's an amazing movie guys. It's funny and sad and sweet and beautiful and I loved it.
So now I'm watching X-Men. Gosh, I'm such a good time user, it's impossible to waste my life like this.
My mama made lemon pudding and tis goooood (Y)
Day 16 - Someone that's not in your state/country
Uhm, hey Daddy. How's it going? Sigh, it's so awkward talking to you, so it's better I don't. Hope you're having a nice life.
Day 17 - Someone from your childhood
I think we were engaged in Year 1 LOL. Then I discovered what a crush was. Wow, you've achieved quite a bit, playing tennis on a scholarship in USA. Maybe we should get married. Primary was fun. You were a great friend. Come to think of it, from Kindergarten to Year 2, I hung around with dudes instead of girls.
Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're going to get.
6:16 PM
Friday, June 10, 2011
I'm bored
Be honest, who texted you last?
Ricky
Do you sleep with the door open or closed??
Closed of course
Did anyone see your last kiss?
LOL yeah
Do you drink tea?
It's my morning ritual
Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yes
Ricky
Do you sleep with the door open or closed??
Closed of course
Did anyone see your last kiss?
LOL yeah
Do you drink tea?
It's my morning ritual
Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yes
Do you have plans for tomorrow?
I'm on a date with my house
What's worse: dry skin or chapped lips?
Chapped lips
Would you be surprised if your parents had another baby together?
Oh my god I will kill the child
Do you want to get married?
Definitely
Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants or pajama pants?
Jeans
So, what if you married the last person you texted?
Well, Ricky would rather die than have sex so :/
I'm on a date with my house
What's worse: dry skin or chapped lips?
Chapped lips
Would you be surprised if your parents had another baby together?
Oh my god I will kill the child
Do you want to get married?
Definitely
Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants or pajama pants?
Jeans
So, what if you married the last person you texted?
Well, Ricky would rather die than have sex so :/
Last person you told a secret to?
No one, it came up today.
What are you listening to at the moment?
HP music
Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
Bus
Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to?
Yes
Are relationships ever really worth it?
Yes
Do you believe in love?
I have no idea.
When was the last time you saw your father?
5 years ago
Have any memories that you'd like to forget?
No, I don't want to forget anything
Is there someone you really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff?
YES FAR OUT IT'S KILLING ME
Have you ever been called prince or princess?
Sadly, no
Do you think teenagers can be in love?
I think so, but I wouldn't act upon it dramatically, like planning a future.
How fast does your mood change?
It's ever-changing
Do you have any condoms in your room?
No I gave it to my mum LOL
Do you need to say anything to someone?
Yes, lots of things
Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
HAHA
How are you feeling?
Upset
Do you want someone to call you right now?
That'd be a miracle
What do you always take with you?
Phone and money
Is your bed comfortable?
Yes
Would you say you're an understanding person?
No, I'm opinionated and stubborn
Are you generally a happy person?
I doubt it
Who's in your profile picture with you?
Zac and I'm the water that's splashing all over his Adonis body (Y)
Were you single on Valentines Day?
Forever alone
What is the last movie you watched?
Harry Potter
Do you listen to songs when you're done?
I'm not big on music. I prefer my ears free of headphones.
How long does it take you to fall asleep at night?
A while
Are you talkative?
Depends on the person
Next vacation you're going on?
Hopefully these holidays
Were you single last summer?
Hopefully these holidays
Were you single last summer?
Last summer, I was content having sex with vampires (Y)
8:51 PM
I LOVE THIS MOVIE SO MUCH OH MY GOD I WANT TO MARRY IT.
1:46 PM
Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus.
Sigh, didn't go to school today, and I'm so cold. I can't get any work done, gave up on maths so I'm trying to finish PE, while watching Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging. I adore this movie so much, it uplifts my mood each time. PHWOAR. Haha and the George Clooney dude and sigh, Aaron Johnson was so cute. I really like how they talk, even though it's super tacky.
DAVE THE LAUGH! Sigh, they party quite a bit. Our grade is so sad. MY LIFE IS SO SAD. Also, my boobs don't go nunga nunga.
I really hope we're going out this weekend. I'm so sick of my home and being a hermit.
1:15 PM
Thursday, June 9, 2011
from the coast to the coast
Fuck tumblr is so gay now, so I ceebs to go on it.
Hum, I'm sick. I despise winter, it's fucking cold and next week it's going to get rainy as well. I'm gonna be sick 24/7.
Far out, fuck you, seriously. You don't need to keep putting me down like that.
9:36 PM
Occupado
Sigh, I'm watching Princess Diaries right now. God I love this movie, it's so inspiring, and she's so beautiful. I love it in the end after they kiss and all dance. I LOVE THIS MOVIE SO FUCKING MUCH AND GOD I'M SUCH A TIME WASTER.
Religion first and it was so humorously gay so I didn't concentrate but that was our last lesson OHO thank god (Y) We might finally have careers.
FAR OUT FUCKING FOOD TECH OH MY FUCKING GOD I FUCKING HATE THIS UNIT FAR OUT THE LENTILS WERE SO CHAT AND THE COOKIES WEREN'T COOKED AND WE WERE LATE FOR SCIENCE AND THE TEACHER WAS STRESSING US OUT SO MUCH, FUCKING COUNTING US DOWN.
Science. I despise biology. Anything that doesn't involve chemical equations really. I'm hopeless.
PE and stress busters was fun. Georgia brought Mr Darcy, her DOG and he was adorable. Then Anika etc threw a pretty fail party LOL. But there was plenty of junk so (Y) Then Erin and Keshani had a kid kind of party and we did finger painting and play doh and straw necklaces and twas very fun. LOL me and Christine drew Sock and Sandy HAHA. And we got lolly bags!
Far out, Aidan was at Eastwood. I haven't seen him in over a year. They haven't had a dance in over a year and I really feel like dancing! Didn't stay at library today. I've been watching Princess Diaries since I got home and I ceebs to zumba or do maths hw. I think I shall shower soon.
Might be going out this long weekend (Y)
Day 15 - The person you miss the most
Aidan Thom.
5:57 PM
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
LOL SHUT THE FUCK UP BITCH.
9:34 PM
waves of pleasure
Awesome day today broskies. Well it was fucking freezing so I gave in and wore my blazer and it was so incredibly bulky, but I love those pockets. Prevented frostbite on my hands (Y)
Science test first, so I missed commerce, and oh my god, I couldn't stop sniffling and the test wasn't too bad, but yes, sickness, so I just slept in the last 5 minutes. Ceebs to fix things.
Recess was unbearably cold, holy guacamole.
Food tech is sooo boring and our stupid fundraiser thing is fucking stupid. I DESPISE FOOD EQUITY. Far out, we have a fucking practical assessment for it. IT'S FUCKING RIDICULOUS OMG THE TEACHER PEEESSES THE SHIIIIET OUT OF ME.
Sigh, me and Anika are fucked for SAIL. Like, holy, shit I was supposed to do it after school, but MEH I ceebs. I should've just made a fucking dress.
English, oh my god FUCKING ASSESSMENT LIKE WHAT EVEN OMGUACAMOLE IT'S SO STUPID KDLJFSLKJFLKDJFLKDJFLKJDFKLSDJ. And Ms. Foster >> Her voice lulls me to sleep.
AHAHA QUOTES CHRISTINE.
Good afternoon I had (Y) Bus was fun too, LOL. I'd still love Wednesdays if it weren't for SAIL. Yeah then me and Christine went to Coles and bought shit for play doh and went home and dear lord, the first batch was a disaster LOL. Our fingers were caked in flour and water, it was disgusting. My hands were spasming, it was worse than exams. We ended up making 33 which took us like, two and a half hours. They look like fat bonbons and they're COLOURFUL! Then we had yummy curry and stalked blogs and she just left.
Holy fuck I am so so so so oh so cold. Have to print out the food tech time plan, oh my god, I'm actually missing Trott. She didn't give a shit about what we were doing!
I should add Yuri on MSN, but I ceebs. MEH oh well, maybe later.
Day 14 - Someone you've drifted away from
Sigh, this applies to so many people, and I already wrote about the important ones, but meh. Alright I found this thing on tumblr which applies exactly to this, so I'll just copy and paste.
Even if we haven’t talked in a while. I still care about you. You were someone special to me, of course I wouldn’t want anything bad happening to you. I’d support you on the things you do. The decisions and choices you make. You’ll always be something a part of me. No matter the distance. No matter the silence. No matter the drift. I still care about you, and I hope you know that too.
7:12 PM
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
when that moon is big and bright
IT'S SO MOTHER FUCKING COLD HOLY MOLY I WANT TO DIE OH MY GUACAMOLE.
Okay missed early bus which pissed on my mood. Then me and Audrey ran for Maccas breakfast because stupid Christine was too tired to come to school. Not cool.
English first, and fuck I fucking hate Gregory so fucking much OMG and the lesson was so boring, I wanted to die. I think we got told off for sleeping.
Maths and I hate data.
We got our results back for commerce, LOL me and Anika couldn't stop laughing, our results were so bad. Also, Mr Hindmarsh got his wife pregnant (Y)
History, sigh. Tried to fall asleep but my vagina kept vibrating. From my phone. LOLJOKES it was turned on.
Yeah, Brandonskies came with me to Towers. It was so boring. Nah, we ate a lot of food. But omguacamole, SO COLD when I was walking home, my face was stinging from the wind. Now I ceebs to make play doh for stress busters but Christine might come over and help me tomorrow (Y)
I don't know, I don't think anybody I like hates me. But to a less extent, there's one thing I'd change. I'm sure it's affected our friendship and your perceiving of me. I hope you've forgiven me, though I'm not sure I would if our roles were reversed. Thank you for putting up with me.
5:52 PM
Monday, June 6, 2011
I'm so afraid to feel everything, so I feel nothing.
9:28 PM
I don't like Mondays
Like most misery, it started with apparent happiness.
Hello. So last night I stayed up with Jenny and Ricky and Brandon watching French Open finals and gosh, it was so intense at first and Nadal was SHIT but the table kept turning and I was super worked up, but around 1am, I died. But then Nadal took his shirt off and OMG the game was suspended for 10 minutes and I was sooo tired. So I watched till the middle of the third game and slept at 2, and Nadal won so (Y) But I usually go for whoever loses I think. I'm strange.
As a result, woke up half an hour late and we had a sub for English first who was a cow. Everybody is a cow and we borrowed this thick-ass book which was quite good, I'm up to Part 2 (Y)
I'm sorry I spilt cake on your new sneakers, Jess.
We finally did zumba! Twas very fun, but OMG I hate sweating and then leaving the place and getting cold air blasted on me. It's a recipe for a cold. At least I've done my exercise for the day.
Science and we started biology which might've been interesting but sleep deprivation over the weekend was catching up. I think I got a total of 10 hours sleep this weekend. I love Ms Smyth.
Spaz at lunch LOL and Audrey had macaroons.
Maths, and we got our results, and I suppose I'm getting an alright range so far. I'm just hoping to get at least 80% for most subjects. HAHA okay, probably 70%.
Far out, life's a bitch.
Day 12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
I don't hate anyone, despite my outbursts. I've already done him, so you. It's not you causing me pain, it's myself because of you, and I don't even understand why I do this to myself, which makes things worse. Because if I knew, then there'd be some rationality or reason as to how I'm acting. There isn't. It's a miserable feeling.
5:08 PM
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Take Note
Time started: 6:37PM
Sex: Female
Birthday: 25 January 1996
Siblings: Little sister
Siblings: Little sister
Eye color: Boring brown
Shoe size: 37-38
Height: 165 exactly (Y)
What are you wearing: Nothing ;)
Righty or lefty: Righty
Can you make a dollar in change right now: Yus
Who are your closest friends: My group duh
Best place for a date? As long as we can talk a lot. Preferably a nice restaurant, but that's when we're older and richer,
Where is your fav place to shop: Anywhere that doesn't stock shit like Jay Jays
Favorite kind of plant: Roses or PEONIES Eric
Fave Color: I'll just stick with purple
Fave Number: >>
Fave Boys Name: Jake. I quite like Brandon and Richard too, but mostly names starting with J.
Fave Girls Name: French ones are really nice
Fave Sport: I like watching tennis (Y)
Fave Month: December CHRISTMAS!
Movies: Chick flicks
Finger food: Biscuits or chips
Breakfast food: French toast or poached eggs
Favorite cartoon character: I can only think of P&F
Given anyone a bath: My dog
Smoked: No
Made yourself throw-up: That wasn't really a choice
Gone skinny dipping: No
Eaten a dog: NO
Put your tongue on a frozen pole? It almost got stuck on an ice block
Loved someone so much it made you cry? I suppose...
Broken a bone? Yeah
Played truth or dare: No shiy
Been in a physical fight: Definitely
Been in a police car: No
Been on a plane: Yes
Come close to dying: Not to that extent
Been in a sauna: Yes
Been in a hot tub: Yes
Cried when someone died: I don't know anyone who died
Cried in school: Yes
Fell off your chair: Yes HAHA
Wait for someone's phone call all night: No TT
Saved MSN conversations: Used to
Saved e-mails: No
Fallen for one of your best friends: No
Made out with JUST a friend? Not made out
Used someone: Yes
Whats your good luck charm? OMG JAKE MY BABY, WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU D:
Best song you ever heard: Too many.
What's your bedroom like: Dark, I'm in it to sleep and wake up.
Last thing you said: Britney lyrics (Y)
What is beside you? Remote, books, dvds, laptops
Last thing you ate: Lamb
What kind of shampoo do you use? Tresemme
Best thing that has happened to you this year: Safe to say nothing, but meet some people, which I wish didn't happen most of the time.
Worst thing that has happened to you this year: Exams and meeting you
Have you had...
Chicken pox: No
Sore Throat: Life
Stitches: No
Broken nose: No
Do You...
Believe in love at first sight: No
Like school: I love school
What schools have you gone to: CHPS, HGHS
Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000. dollars: What even >>
If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with you: People who are super strong and merciful so they'll kill me straight away and eat me or get us off the island
Who was the last person that called you: Mum probably
Who was the last person you slow danced with: Waltz with Ricky?
What makes you laugh the most? Other people laughing
What makes you smile? I can't even list half
Last Person...
You yelled at: Mum
Who broke your heart: Nobody
Told you that they love you: Nobody :(
Is your loudest friend: LOL Christine probably
Do you/Are you:
Do you like filling these out? It satisfies my boredom
Do you wear contacts or glasses: NEVER EVER EVER I REFUSE
Do you like yourself: No
Do you get along with your family: Of course
Stolen anything over $50: Nah
Obsessive Compulsive? Depends
Anorexic? LOL ALRIGHT
Suicidal? How stupid can you be?
What are you listening to right now? Bad Romance just came on
What did you do yesterday: Sleep and watch TV
Have you hated someone in your family: Yes
Got any awards: Yes
Where do you want to get married: In an EXTRAORDINARY monumental place
If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change? Erase fat
Good driver: LOL
Good Singer: Oh, absolutely
Have a lava lamp: NO :(
How many remote controls are in your house: I swear we're getting to 20
What do you dream about: Normo and Hornsby had an excursion but the guys ate all the food so we starved
Last time you showered: An hour ago
Last time you took a bath: SUMMER I MISS SUMMER SO FUCKING MUCH I HATE WINTER
Scary or happy movies: Happy duh, what even
Chocolate or white chocolate: Chocolate
Root Beer or Dr.Pepper: Root beer
Mud or Jell-O wrestling: Jell-O
Vanilla or chocolate: Vanilla
Summer or winter: Summer
Silver or Gold: Silver
Diamonds or pearls: I suppose generally diamonds, but pearls are so much more classic
Sunset or Sunrise: Sunrise
6:37 PM
disturbing
Justin Bieber marathon is on TV so I'm just belting Baby out (Y)
WHAT AN UNPRODUCTIVE DAY OMG. Slept at like, effing 3am, and watched French Open women's finals which was rather uneventful but I'M SO EXCITED FOR ROGER AND NADAL!
JENNY IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I'M GOING TO CRY IF NADAL PULLS OUT FROM INJURY.
Yes so I plan on sleeping late again, which I'll definitely regret tomorrow. My teeth really really REALLY hurt and I'm super bored so I'll do the thing on Jess' blog in the next post.
Day 11 - A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Anybody. Give me tips on life. Maybe Sylvia Plath or Eliot LOL. Tell them about our fucked up society (Y) Shakespeare would be pree cool too.
Okay so I finished The Bell Jar which made no sense to me, just gave me ways on how to suicide.
I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig-tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig-tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.
6:17 PM
Saturday, June 4, 2011
why do you tarry
What a useless day. MY TEETH KILL OH MY GUACAMOLE.
Anyway, I spent the rest of the day watching How I Met Your Mother and I totally forgot about 17 Again so I'm watching High Society (Y) Then I'm planning to start Skins soon.
I can't believe I'm actually wishing for exams. I need a purpose to do something!
Day 10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to
Easy. I miss you so much, it's probably the only friendship issue that makes me break down. We've drifted so far apart, and I get so sad seeing you talk to everybody else. You meant a lot to me, and I know I did to you, too. I suppose it's my fault, seeing as I've ignored and replaced you, but it was yours too. Maybe we weren't that close, or we would've made more effort. It's awkward now. I miss you a lot.
9:57 PM
like an introvert
Sigh, I have two PE assignments to do, but I ceebs. MY BRACES COME OFF IN TWO WEEKS! But the dentist put some random elastics on and my mouth is so tired and the thing keeps getting food stuck on it. Now that exams are over, I don't even know what to do. At least they kept me on track. Maybe I'll just waste my time with movies.
Life is so unfulfilling. I think Eliot is rubbing off on me.
2:07 PM
Friday, June 3, 2011
I totally forgot about my letters challenge and since I have nothing to do rn, I shall do five days worth of letters. They're kinda short but oh well.
Day 5 - Your dreams
It'd be pretty bad if you guys turned out to be the future. 'cept, you know, when I have some horny ones (Y)
Day 6 - A stranger
Oh, hi there. Do you like guacomole? We can talk about toast too.
Day 7 - Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Already mentioned this before, but YOU ARE SERIOUSLY REALLY HOT NOW OH MY GOODNESS. Lucky girls. Hope your life is going good.
Day 8 - Your favourite internet friend
Sigh, Andrea. Except then she deleted her tumblr and I haven't spoken to her in over half a year. Hope you're having fun in Canada, and you should reactivate your tumblr SOON.
Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet
There's no one I want to meet in particular. Not even Zac Efron. I don't know, someone who could inspire me or teach me something.
OH but 17 Again is on tomorrow OHOHO. Haven't seen it for like, almost a year, so I need to catch up on Zac.
9:17 PM
erection
Oh, yes.
Eric cried.
For twenty minutes.
It was great fun.
So I kicked him in the balls.
LOL WHAT EVEN, WHAT BALLS.
7:32 PM
pree cool
Oh my goodness, I'm on such a high rn TODAY WAS SO FUN AHAHAHAHA.
Alright, so I missed my bus and got further pissed at penno but tis alright. OMG got representation results back and I majorly fucked it, like what even. And my fucking english sub is a fucking COW I DESPISE her.
Jap exchange and Yuri was so pretty and everybody loved her pants LOL. And Akino was just like Christine, that unfortunate girl. Quite a bit awkward today, since my buddy wouldn't speak to me unless I said something (like y'know, AHEM) but OMG THEY ALL LIKE ZAC EFRON AND HSM I WAS LIKE :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD but they wouldn't sing with us.
I was so disappointed with lunch, like seriously, it was disgusting so I gave Yuri my sandwich. And I died after 5 minutes of the nutbush so I'm seriously unfit. And then we took photos and I look sooo bad in all of them >>
Yes, well it was fun and then Brandon showed up at penno which was awesome (Y) Then I got a (blue) waffle and us three went to the library and sat in this sad computer area. Then Eric came like an hour later and twas very fun, like we went spastic. TKD and balls and penises and stretches and sex, the usual.
KEGELS LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.
"I'm seeing double. There's two 'l's"
*look at Wellbeing*
"THERE ARE TWO 'L'S"
Well I'm SORRAY guise, it's only funny if you're there.
Come to think of it, I don't know why we were laughing, but I think the whole library heard us but MEH we had lots of fun, plus we burned all those calories from yesterday HAHA.
Yeah, I've missed you guys. This is going to be a weekly thing now (Y)
I'm turning into Brandon.
7:21 PM
Thursday, June 2, 2011
facepalm
Oh my god I want to die. This is what it's like to be really stuffed, like I can barely move and sweat was dotting my forehead and ohmagad TT
Okay well, the day started off alright, we had science first and got results back and our class actually did really well but omguacamole, I changed TWO CORRECT ANSWERS DSDLKSJDLFKJSDLK. So devo.
Geography was just oh so boring, my eyes refused to stay open.
LOL computing skills test. 84% and Christine's score was just LOL. Then we played Maths Circus for half the lesson and it was so frustrating and Christine bruised my knee.
Food tech last. I seriously hate food equity.
Met up with Eric and Brandonskies and took M60 to towers and then we had a fucking massive dinner. Curry and KFC and Oporto. I wanted to die but then we just walked around and had fun in Rebel HAHA. Then we stupidly decided to go Max Brenner and we had waffles and chocolate fondue w/ fruit and marshmallows and banana bread and ice-cream and I was sooooo full I wanted to die. Like, oh my god, couldn't stand properly. Then I started laughing so hard at Brandon's mask and my stomach expanded twice its usual size.
Sigh, now I'm writing my stupid letter for my stupid Jap thing and I sooo don't want to go so I'm half-hoping I'll get food poisoning or some shit.
Life's a bitch, and then you die.
8:39 PM
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
tis winter
Exams over and now I'm gonna tumblr my ass off and kill my eyes watching movies and SLEEP OMG. Sadly, the best exam was probably Much Ado, cramming quotes in this morning, and it was still pretty bad, and commerce was just holy fuck and geography was just omguacamole. But we were in a good mood after school so it's all good. Got food with Christine.
Library possibly tomorrow, except I ceebs to do work. I need to start exercise again and oh my god, I don't want to go back to school timetables OMGGGGGGGGG.
FAR FUCKING OUT TUMBLR IS NOT WORKING WHAT IS THIS FUCKERY OH MY GOD WHAT EVEN DLFKJSLDFKJSLDFKJSLAJLDFKJSLKDJFSKLFJLSJFDKLS.
Alright bad mood now.
4:52 PM