Genevieve
You forget that we are in the native land of the hypocrite.
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Saturday, January 3, 2015
theme
Finally brought myself to use my laptop. I really hate typing.
Safe to say that this NYE topped last year in terms of how rubbish it was. Conveniently on the 29th, my mum and I had a huge blowout so it was an awkward affair this year. Really just me being ignored by my parents and my sister feeling obliged to keep me company in my room after dinner until midnight. Fights always erupt during the festive season, guess I was fulfilling family destiny. At least Christine and Suk were there to keep me company virtually.
I finally finished Catch-22 on the 30th. Second half of the book took a solid seven hours and I'm pleased to agree with Suk about the ending being worth the long journey towards it. It's interesting how polarised the reviews of the book are. First book of 2015, The Unbearable Lightness of Being. I've got my lists up, but my resolutions aren't really coming to me. I know writing is one. By that I mean physically writing most days if I can.
So I guess goodbye blogspot? Maybe it's because my life is so quiet and repetitious that there's no point keeping this up when there's not really many more memories I find worth noting and revisiting. That's what this was convenient for thanks to the mostly mechanical recounts I've written over the last five years. Recently there's just a lot I want to let out but this is hardly the right platform for that. This feels stupid, everyone just left their blogs without a second thought but mine was important to me for a long time, satiating my fears of forgetting the smallest things. I've realised that if I do attempt almost daily pen/paper writing, chances are I won't have the energy to decipher my shitty handwriting and revisit days and thoughts. Which is okay I suppose, the main goal is to try cultivate my writing. Typing here is just cheating. Writing might help me sort out what I'm thinking, especially since handwriting can't keep up with thoughts. Hopefully slowing down and forcing to think before I spew whatever I need to say will let me clear my head while still finding it cathartic. I'm sure I'll write an occasional post here like some still do. Thanks Elaine (if you still read this) for being a pioneer of starting social media trends back in those junior days. I owe a lot of my memories to this.
I will be annoyed with this single post in the 2015 archive though. Penance for previous laziness.
2014, can't say I'm glad to see you end. 2015, can't say I'm glad that you're here.
Toodles.
10:17 PM
Sunday, December 28, 2014
50
Unprepared for 2015.
I finally bought the Hamlet jumper from Kinokuniya. The line there while I was Christmas shopping was insane, probably almost 20 metres but things moved pretty quickly. The lead up to Christmas passed over uneventfully since there weren't too many presents to buy and wrap this year.
Christmas morning was pretty frantic trying to prepare a meal that would last us all day and that's pretty much what the family did; sit at the dining table from 1pm till dark, eating. This year was probably the latest we ever waited to open our presents, which happened past 7pm as opposed to the usual morning frenzy. The festive spirit wasn't in me this year. Presents were minimal since I asked everyone to save their money for my birthday but I still got a giant hardback of all of Sherlock stories, a modern life guide inspired by Austen, Elie Saab fragrance and some Burt's Bees products so yes very happy. The Sound of Music on tv was a good way to end the day.
Lazy Boxing Day listening to my parents' music and debating whether the Roxette concert would be worth attending lol.
Yesterday was a great day. Jen and I finally met up after her Beijing trip and we went to Newtown with cronuts on the agenda except Brewtown wasn't open so we settled for Pie Tin. The pumpkin pie was amazing, screw Australia and its lack of American sweets. Rowena and I met up once I got back to Towers and jesus I wasn't expecting it to be so busy. We had a look at the department stores and it was generally all disappointing. When you already have markdowns up to 40% prior to Christmas, the Boxing Day 'sales' seem pretty lame. That aside, we had a great catch up over chatime and wedges.
So I haven't resumed Catch-22, there's nearly 200 pages to tank and I'm sitting on an awful number of 9 books completed this year. Somehow that's not enough incentive and I know I'll regret it immensely. Maybe there'll be a burst of inspiration in the next couple days because that's all I've got.
Groupon is amazing, I just discovered all these super cheap 8-week Latin dance deals, Which will be a good way to finish off the last two months of holidays. Hopefully Jen and I actually go through with it.
8:39 PM
Saturday, December 20, 2014
alarming
Oops almost a fortnight since I last posted. Sigh, disappointed with my inconsistency.
On December 13, Anika and Nayomi got together to make the most of Anika's presence in Sydney before flying away for another semester, sigh. That's all I miss about high school; constant presence of your friends, which obviously had many downsides but that was usually balanced out. Nayomi was late so Anika and I chilled in Victoria Park, chatting on the swings until we felt nauseous which was possibly provoked by watching a little boy pee in the playground bark. We went to some overpriced Glebe cafe and talked too loudly and ugh just so happy to have had Anika back. Pia's farewell party was later that night and it was also nice to see Jordan and Callum again. There were a lot of weird guests so the three of us were just being recluses.
Mum's birthday the next day which got to a horrible start after losing $500 in the early hours of the morning. My grandparents put that amount into our card envelope which my sister dropped off in our mailbox the previous night so I could write in it on time. Then come 7:30am, groggy and all and then I see our mailbox unlocked and empty and just had a fit. Devastating. But I made some amazing pancakes with this recipe Edwina's friend gave her, never ever going to buy those shitty mixes again. I also made a coffee walnut cake which was pretty delicious, I had doubts about it but clearly bbcgoodfood can be trusted. They had this raspberry and amaretti cake that had 80 people raving and I'm so excited to make it for Christmas.
December 15 saw me sat on the couch for the whole day just watching the same Channel 7 footage of the Lindt cafe siege. Actually Suk made me wake up to see the news. Something was bound to happen soon. I just kept waiting for an explosion or something to kill all the reporters and camera crew. The fact that this went international was mind boggling, especially when my father emailed me asking if I was safe. That day, I also spent hours transcribing a nice piano cover of La Vie en Rose onto hand drawn treble and bass clef lines lol.
In other news, I got through two seasons of Daria, finished The Virgin Suicides and recovered from a fever. Now it's time to do ALL THE CHRISTMAS SHOPPING ugh, don't even want to imagine how busy everywhere is going to be.
Uni enrolments have started and I'm getting worried that I won't be able to handle 4 units a semester because they're all going to be so reading/writing heavy. Claw, English and Philosophy for starters, constant essays. After seeing how I salvaged things in sem 2, I finally have some faith in myself but that was a stressful time.
It's also time to consider new lists for 2015. Resolutions, books, things to do. This year's weren't so successful, but learning curve.
11:02 PM
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
un
Fun fun day worth writing about on time. Finally had a meet up with Nayomi and Sean which probably hasn't happened since very early sem 2 or maybe even late sem 1, idk our timetables didn't sync well this sem unfortunately, so it was really nice being together again. Thank you to the WongFu video I saw months ago where they played mini golf, I was inspired to do the same today. It's probably been 8 years since my family last took me to the putt putt in Dural.
Anyway, managed to find a pretty great one in Thornleigh, except I wish there were more silly obstacles as opposed to inclines/declines and random bumps etc. And why, which genius thought to surround each course with a freaking pool? At least they provided nets to fish the drowning balls out, which Nayomi had to use multiple times.
Holding the putter felt so foreign, it took a while to get the hang of things. A little boy and his mum managed to overtake us, we were pretty bad for the first round of 18 holes, and for some reason, the wind decided to calm down while the sun decided to appear. Severe risk of sunstroke, obviously not conducive to playing well. Palms was better though, and omfg course number 10, Nayomi and I both hit a hole in one! Sean technically did once in an earlier course but it was his second hit so didn't count. We finished 36 holes much faster than I thought we would. I was expecting us to need three hours or something but we managed just under two. It was great, pretty cheap as well, definitely have to go back again.
We went to Eastwood for lunch and ordered the giant schnitzel Nayomi always raved about and yeah, I underestimated how large it was. It was really good though, probably the best schnitzel I've had since it was chunky and juicy while others serve them mostly really thin, which tends to dry out while cooking.
The rest of the day consisted lounging on my couch for a few hours and convincing my dad not to get himself fired for being a smart ass at work. Might be useful to lend him those stupid 1001 notes about teamwork. Anika has finally finished her exams which means I can finally see her after months. Now time to attempt the nightmarish task of relearning My Heart Will Go On on my keyboard. This will be a spectacular fail, thank god I can have the volume at barely a whisper.
11:34 PM
Monday, December 8, 2014
ys
Results came back yesterday and this disgusting weight has finally been lifted off my shoulders. I remembered my relief this morning when I didn't have a nightmare, which I've been a consistently having for the last week thinking about results before sleeping. But yes, did better than I expected. This is encouragement, next sem will be better.
ABC2 played Breaking Dawn Pt 2 a couple nights ago and I figured it was time to give it a chance after the ridiculous twenty minutes we sneaked into at the cinema a couple years ago. You'd figure in these times, they could've done a more realistic job with the zooming backdrop and Renesmee's weird face. That aside, I actually really liked it HAHA, definitely the best film out of the whole franchise, even though I've only seen the first two. Something I could watch again. I'm definitely feeling the urge to grab the four books and hole myself up for two days to relive those Year 7 feels, I was such a loser.
Christmas spirit, I love carols in the shop speakers. Except not the really generic recordings. Sometimes you get lucky with a Bing Crosby or Sinatra recording. There was a singing Santa that was singing Usher's Yeah... Gift shopping is exhausting though, and I've realised that it's probably too late to order anything online and hope for its timely arrival so perusing the useless shopping shelves it is.
I've also been moody since I realised that Vidcon goes from 23-25th July next year which most likely includes the day I land in London and spend in the city before exploring the English countryside, meaning this is crushing my dreams of stalking Dan and Phil.
Oh yeah, finished Northanger Abbey. Keeping in mind it was Austen's first piece, she definitely managed to cultivate her style after it, but yeah, not impressed, pretty bored, little flow in the plot and pretty dumb characters, but in that last aspect, I guess she accurately capture how her society was back then. Started The Virgin Suicides, but after the first few chapters, full immersion clearly requires a less than happy mood to deal with how unsettling it can be.
Reminiscing with some old Miley.
10:26 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2014
rh
It's nice not having to keep track of the time each day anymore. I'm just trying to enjoy these last few days of blissful ignorance before results come back and the future of my study is determined.
I've accepted there is no hope for ever recovering my poor earring so I'll just go around looking stupid with one earring because it still deserves to be worn.
There's a dilemma with the number of books I want to read by the new year. I'll be two away from ten once Northanger Abbey is finished, and unless Catch-22 will take me a solid three weeks to finish, I'll finish pretty quickly? But then I can't start another book and end the year in the process of reading or having read ELEVEN books. Measly problems.
Family went to Costco a couple days ago to make use of the stupid membership we got ourselves into half a year ago and it was as underwhelming as it was the first time, except for the poppycock and peanut butter filled pretzels mm. It's such a stressful situation with the trolleys there because they don't directly move left and right and manoeuvering through crowded aisles is a high pressure task. However I did find a nice hardback of Arabian Nights for $22 which is relatively light and the hardcover is slightly flexible so it makes for easy reading.
Yesterday Nayomi and I finally caught up over an overpriced meal at Hog's Breath because we were too ceebs to ask about the $10 lunch specials THAT THEY DIDN'T EVEN SHOW US so mad, sneaky shits. We just walked around and I caved and tried a chatime with egg pudding because Rowena's been raving about it. No flavour but it's like the texture of herbal jelly with the taste of the tea so no complaints.
Buttons was left in the rain yesterday thanks to my mum not checking the thunderstorm forecast and when we got home, she was just sitting at the back door getting rained on when she could've taken shelter in her kennel. Idiot. But omg the pet store finally let some dogs out which I swear they haven't done in ages and sigh, made me miss puppy Buttons. They were also handing out organic dog food samples.
Gladiator was on tv last night and it's inspired me to attempt to understand Roman history once again but ugh, anything involving warfare is on my blacklist, I'm just not interested to get annoyed at dead people and their decisions and reasonings. This is probably why Heller is taking me years, literally.
12:52 PM
Monday, December 1, 2014
plaintes
I feel like I should be recording these measly days in some written form but you can't just start that at the end of the year. I will though. Might be interesting to see what comes out of my pen when you can't backspace.
It's been a beautifully chill week, can't believe it's only been a week. In a nutshell, I spent four days in the city last week which was not a good way to detox from uni. There was my grandpa's 75th where we spent $300 on a fucking tasteless lobster, among other bland dishes. Seafood sucks. Rowena and I stuffed ourselves in Newtown to the point where we spent an hour in Pie Tin trying to finish two slices, which was probably a hideous idea after three plates of thai food. Lesson learned. Lastly, I actually had to go back to uni on Friday for peer mentor training which was just two hours of dictating information we could've read in a handbook or something. They must've made almost a hundred sandwiches which were actually quite gourmet and delicious.
It was Carla's birthday yesterday and we went to the piazza for some average thai and Max Brenner's dessert and it was so nice catching up. Max Brenner's was also jumping at 10pm on a Sunday night. What else could Castle Hill offer lol.
I've also finished reading Atwood and am almost done with Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close which is amazing so far and completely unpredictable so I'm really excited to finish it. Then another month to knock out three more.
After eleven months, I finally got a haircut, was so sick of my thin limp and heavy hair. Then I got home and hours later realised that I fucking lost one earring and had a breakdown thinking that they probably swept it up along with the rest of the hair on the ground. Or that I brushed it off because a moth was buzzing around my ear on our evening walk, which means it is sitting somewhere in the muddy grass because of the rain. Fuck me fuck me, it would've been approaching three years this Christmas since my mum bought them for me I CAN'T LOSE IT WHEN I HAVE A MATCHING NECKLACE BUT YOU CAN'T SPEND $400 ON THE SAME THING AGAIN. So miserable, I discovered it was missing when I was pumped and ready to work out and now I'm sitting here mourning on my bed. Maybe yoga is more suitable for this mood than zumba. I don't have a very good streak with jewellery, the number of necklaces I've broken and bracelets I've lost...
Anyway it's December/summer now. I'm feeling the Christmas spirit seeing all these lights and trees go up in my neighbourhood. It'll be validated once I hear carols in the shopping centre and once our tree goes up, hopefully this coming weekend.
10:54 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2014
ye
At long last, the freedom I've been anticipating since March. Basically it's been a horrible final week trying to keep my head screwed on while torturing myself thinking about everyone else's freedom. Fuck the last two exams, fuck the anticlimax. Three blissful months of sloth behaviour, so ready. It's going to pass so much faster than last year's break.
First thing I did once I got home on Friday was watch Beauty and the Beast, Bridget Jones and Love Actually, needed some brainless activities. It was so tempting to watch the OSCURO dvds that I finally collected that afternoon but since Jen has gone to Beijing for a month, I've got to wait so we can watch it for the first time together. Me and Anika also had a long overdue chat. So it was an anticlimactic but very peaceful first day of break.
FINALLY I started reading today, and The Handmaid's Tale was first on my list. I'd already had a vague idea of the basic plot but the first hundred pages I got through weren't what I was expecting, at least in terms of narrative style. Hopefully that can be finished within the next few days. It feels so good to just lie there and not have to stress. Edwina and I made red velvet. Attempts at a healthy lifestyle begins tomorrow.
Since I'm going to limit any form of money spending as much as possible, it seems right to make some goals to work towards in the solitude of home this break. Besides reading, there's a bunch of piano pieces I want to re-master and new ones to learn. It's been a therapeutic activity to play again.
Aragorn, dribble.
10:13 PM
Monday, November 17, 2014
dedede
These few weeks have probably seen me study more than I have for the entire semester. Hopefully that'll change next year. Many lessons were learned this year.
I'm not sure how to feel about that English exam. The night before, Liz and I had done the 2011 past paper we found in the library catalogue, and we weren't bothered to discuss our answers that we were unsure of. Turns out they used that exact paper on Saturday sdsaljljdflkakjhkj so obviously just spewed my potentially incorrect answers. I'm kind of mad, even though the unintentional prep gave me more time to write a semi coherent essay. Probably not according to English standards though.
Another thing; weekend exams suck. The bus was filled with gross high school girls and so many screaming children. The murderous thoughts... Plus nothing at uni was open, not one freaking cafe except for Subway so naturally there was a giant queue for that.
I'm starting to think that the 50 Shades of Grey movie will be infinitely better than the written thing, because it doesn't deserve the title of a book. Without Ana's hideously written thoughts to nauseate the reader, it'll just be really steamy soft porn. I don't think I ever understood how any of it relates to Twilight.
Study vs. prowl Europe travel blogs.
4:19 PM
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
^
It's time to withdraw from social media because it appears that most people are finishing up exams while I'm sitting at one down three to go, fantastic. Stats wasn't too hideous. It was bad enough that I probably didn't manage a pass for the actual final, but whatever marks I managed to salvage will hopefully be sufficient for a unit pass. Praying.
Feeling a little better about English after Liz and I finally figured out some dumb acronyms to help us memorise the phonetic alphabet which is very satisfying. Since the capacity to learn a language is not really in me, this is as close as I'll get. I think all these calculations to figure out what mark we're currently sitting at for each unit is the cause of all this anxiety. I swear I didn't think about it last sem.
My book list has failed horribly this year. 18 books lel, more like 5 books, and three of them aren't even the ones I listed. So the aim is to get through at least three books in December to make it 8 altogether. And one of them has to be Catch-22, it's approaching 1.5 years since I started it.
11:46 PM
Sunday, November 9, 2014
a a a
One hundred percent done with stats. The number of formulas required, my god I have no idea how unsw kids functioned without a cheat sheet and mc questions. Apparently it's still really difficult with those advantages so I probably shouldn't be complacent about any of this, especially with one day of revision left.
I realised I probably haven't left home in over a week except to chill on my balcony because fresh air came as a surprise when I went out to walk with my mum this evening. Probably not good breathing in the recycled air in my bedroom.
Another realisation is that my period will probably be coming sometime during France and/or Italy which is where more of the beaches are and it's making me really sad, I'm going to have to live a very unhealthy lifestyle to push it back. Actually since exams are right before the trip, it probably won't be very difficult to make that happen.
Hating Christine and many others for getting finals over and done with this week and my sister who's chilling in a beach house somewhere. Two more weeks.
10:15 PM
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
blank
November happened.
I've finally grasped the grammatical concepts we learned two months ago, about damn time. It's the only study I can get through, haven't looked at the other three subjects. There's technically still time...
1989 is such a nice surprise. After Red, was not expecting much from TS in her transition to a new sound but she nailed it, can't stop listening to it which is not helping my concentration. I guess it's the perfect environment to get a move on with stats.
Yesterday I was wasting time at home chasing Buttons around. So we were on opposite sides of the room and then I just lay on my back and called her name. I expected her to run to me, did not expect her to run, then freaking launch onto and jump off my stomach. The pain, just curled up for a minute or two afterwards.
9:21 PM
Friday, October 31, 2014
hist
Semester classes have officially ended, even though I did finish on Wednesday. It's been such a crazy week. In short, managed to finish English Monday morning around 5am and tolerate an unfairly hot and windy day.
God, stats was a nightmare, I don't know what I would've done without Rowena, Grace and Nayomi. So technically it was kind of sad, I'm sure this is the last time we'll have a shared unit which means nobody to rely on. Nayomi and I stayed at uni till 9pm not even finishing, I'd never been at uni that late before besides oscuro days. It was reassuring seeing plenty of people around struggling through the same assignment though.
Wednesday was bliss with all the assignments out of the way and two remotely enjoyable tutes. Rebecca made us amazing cookies, but it was more like cookie dough since it was slightly undercooked. Going through the practice exam in class made it a little less daunting but then again, you had twenty people cooperatively answering and I don't want to think about the long response. Time to brush up on grammar. Anyway, Liz and I had lunch at manning, the food is so good there I'm not sure why I never eat there. Last claw tute was nice too because my assignment went pretty well so passing this course should be in the stars?
So good to get home and just flop around doing nothing. Which is what I've successfully done for these past two days, it's horrible, I should be studying. Making a plan tonight (probably won't stick to it obviously) ugh maybe assignments were preferable. My sister finished HSC on Wednesday, I hate her.
I randomly sat down at my piano yesterday, which has gathered a disgusting amount of dust since it was last opened probably a year ago or something. So much nostalgia going through all those old AMEB books. Surprisingly, my playing wasn't horrific, it all came back pretty quickly and I've got a small list of songs I want to re-master over the summer. It's also on the tiny downstairs level of the house which will be the coolest place to be when it hits 40 degrees.
It has probably been nearly a year since I've looked at my split ends and guh, should not have left it that long. Just kept shivering every time I found one and there were quite a few so now my carpet is littered with bits of dead hair. If my hair keeps falling out at the rate it has been this last month, going to be bald for 2015.
10:59 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2014
kryptonite
I just learned that using 'but' at the end of a sentence to replace 'though' is a Northern English feature, not just annoying web speak. If it weren't for the fact that I've got a thousand words to write by Monday evening, writing about the history of English would actually be a lot of fun because it's actually super interesting, especially contemplations on the spread of English in modern times.
Just realised it's been a while since last blogging because the last few days have just been drowning under the sea of assignments to complete. Guess it'd be funny to mention now how I nearly stepped on a giant blue tongue lizard on Wednesday. I didn't see it as I was going down some steps from the apartment block but then oh god, my peripheral caught onto some 30cm scaly thing and I just managed to side step and very loudly say fuck before I narrowly avoided squishing it with the soles of docs, which would not have been a pretty sight. It was terrifying, it hissed its blue tongue at me. Wonder what all the neighbours thought.
Nayomi and I accomplished that horrific case study due yesterday which I'd stayed up till 5:30am the night before trying to finish. It makes no sense that to do that when it's due at 5pm the next day, but just the thought of wasting another nine hours because I know I have a bit more time is an even worse prospect than not sleeping.
Yesterday Anika came over! Naturally she had to visit an Apple store after spilling coke on her laptop so we decided to make a day out of it in the boring hills. We went back to my house because my mum needed me to do her hair for my dad's work function, and yeah, now Anika knows why I am the way I am after observing the weirdness of my family.
Since my mum wasn't home to make us dinner, we decided to get some maccas drive-thru and Anika had her first experience driving a new car. With me in the passenger seat, it probably wasn't reassuring. So my dad had parked it facing downward on a hill. Engine was on reverse, there was a truck parked quite close in front of us. Foot off the brake, the car inched downhill and then we had a laughing breakdown for a few minutes, wondering why it wasn't reversing till we realised Anika wasn't exactly pressing the accelerator and was too traumatised to take her foot off of the brake again. Anyway, eventually got to maccas, it was fun HAHA. At least it was a learning curve for her. Then we got some froyo and bade each other farewell till probably late December :(
My sister finishes HSC on Wednesday, the same day the last assignment is due/the day finals revision begins. I hate her.
Grandparents bought a whole bunch of deformed cherries. So far I've counted three fully developed double cherries/boobs/butt and two in a pregnant stage.
5:49 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
mis
The semester is so close to ending, I'm salivating at the thought. Honestly all I want to do is buckle down and study content, so fucking finished with all these assignments except that I'm not actually finished. I've actually managed to get just about half of English done so maybe it can be doable over the weekend.
Rowena and I attempted stats today and wow was it a disaster. I keep wondering how horrific it'd be if I failed and I wouldn't have her or anybody else to basically guide me in everything. Quiz came back and Grace and I only just failed so I mean, pretty good. And apparently our class had one of the higher averages out of the cohort LOL. Thankfully we get a cheat sheet in the final, which means we've got to somehow cram at least 4 pages of formulas onto a double sided sheet. Might need a magnifying glass.
Regretting skipping so many tutes earlier in the semester when I really need to right now. The most horrible thing would be an absence fail though.
INTERNET IS SO SLOW, can't even open MSL which means I've got to wait till midnight when it will hopefully renew the data. And resist youtube. Slowly accustoming to little sleep, I somehow managed to wake up at 7:30 today and get to uni by 10, miracle.
Okay enough time wasting.
10:09 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2014
xalt
Woe, weekend over. The internet is so slow it was barely able to open the twenty journal articles I needed so I spent the weekend home which was nice. My grandparents probably needed a break from my sourness anyway. However, not much was accomplished. Maybe a measly quarter of English but jesus it's only the easy quarter. Haven't even researched the second half yet oh god why does this always happen.
Whoops in reference to my previous post, it would not take only five hours to drive down all of France or Italy, more like a whole day. Time to brush up on some geography.
I think my work anxiety is slipping into my dreams. My memory never catches onto any detail, each dream just seems to happen chaotically.
10:36 PM
Friday, October 17, 2014
syn
The heater is on, something is very wrong with the universe because the weather will apparently stay this cold until November.
The number of formulas we're somehow going to have to remember for stats is beyond me. Strangely studying for HSC maths probably had more but those were short and built on each other but these, jesus. You know things won't turn out well when there are fractions within fractions. Calculator can barely handle it.
My mum has allocated England for me to research for our trip which might have been a bad idea because I'm either going to find author's old homes or stalk Dan and Phil, neither of which will keep everybody happy. I keep fretting about the idea of driving around Europe, because my parents actually want to buy a freaking car in Paris and sell it in Italy, but then I remember how tiny Europe and each country actually is and it would probably take five hours to travel down one country. How nice would it be to just a take a train to the next country, lucky Europeans.
Sport for Jove is producing The Crucible using Bella Vista farms as its set, which could be interesting/excruciating to watch.
Last night I accidentally signed up for Arts mentoring next O-week. Accidentally as in I applied believing it to be a selection process and resigning myself to the likely chance of not being selected. Next second, a confirmation email of my participation appears so not sure... it made me realise that I could potentially be a really bad mentor and god, the pressure of placating first years. Then again, it'd be a resume builder so if the email is how I interpreted it, hopefully this will come of use one day.
Only a fortnight left of semester 2 classes. Feeling a mixture of anticipation and sadness. No more classes with Rowena and Grace or Liz, and I seriously love Trang despite how much I hate claw. All in all, hasn't been too bad a semester, which is still far from saying it was good.
9:32 PM
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
i don't wanna
After looking at my planner, I've realised my three assignments are due within a fortnight. Literally going to die, if I can't get a simple extension for English, everything is doomed. Thankfully exercise 2 went okay so maybe I can do extremely mediocre for the essay and final and pass English.
It was so bitterly cold today. After those few weeks of warmth, this was horrifying.
Yesterday was a good day. HIDEOUS STATS QUIZ ASIDE, I mean 80 marks, are you joking, I had dinner with Christine, Grace and Rowena afterwards. Pretty mediocre ramen where we bumped into Michelle and Orrin, and then dessert at Tom n Toms where I somehow amazed them with my ability to clasp and unclasp a necklace... Oh my god Rowena and I went to the bathroom in QVB and the lock on a stall showed green so naturally you assume it's vacant. Opened the door and this lady was standing and ready to flush. Thank JESUS it was not ten seconds earlier because oh my god the humiliation on both sides, just nope. Thankfully we just laughed really hard about it and thanked the cosmos for saving us.
Ugh, probably time to get MSL on the way so I can think of a good simple extension excuse and get a start on the ensuing hell.
11:23 PM
Monday, October 13, 2014
vop
Monday blues.
My internet is loading at a slug's pace thanks to my grandparents' incessant drama watching and my unnecessary youtube adventures so this will be a fun fortnight to endure until our data is renewed.
EXCITING NEWS MY MUM BOOKED OUR FLIGHTS TO EUROPE NEXT JULY I'M SO EXCITED. We leave on the 24th June, which runs the risk of interfering with an exam if I have bad enough luck, but whatever, and come back 30th July so I get to miss Week 1 yey. Seriously so excited, Italy, France, England, Belgium, Holland, another country which I've forgotten. I'm really depressed about having to leave my dog again for a whole month, hopefully the guilt will stay hidden underneath the excitement and fun I may or may not have. It is a family trip after all and tensions run high.
In other news, Nayomi and I spent three hours not doing our case study as we'd planned to but it was about time we caught up so still time well spent.
I just knew I was going to get caught in the rain, the huge storm cloud was basically following the bus home so fast because the wind was going crazy. Naturally it starts raining once I step off the bus, not too hard though, just powerful wind so the umbrella was redundant. And then I'm maybe one minute from home and the showers just descended, it was ridiculous, I couldn't really see because water was just dripping into my eyes. Obviously the sky knew that our stats quiz was coming up tomorrow and that we were doomed. It's hard to imagine how miserable the final will be if we're struggling to do these quizzes with our formulas right in front of us.
HSC started today and apparently my sister messed up already, accidentally analysing two texts in a Section 1 question instead of one. Good old memories.
9:43 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2014
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Sigh, after missing two Mondays (thank you break and public holiday), not looking forward to tomorrow. The day has been filled with stats, thankfully that's the last exam before finals, can focus on writing after Tuesday.
I've been thinking that I'd like to take up a semester of Latin or Greek one day. The prospect of learning a whole new grammar is horrifying but I think it'd be so cool to master enough of a language to read a couple of texts, especially the great historical epics. It's likely I'd completely fail and regret it if the decision goes through.
HSC tomorrow, my sister is freaking out. Good memories.
11:49 PM